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[losing_my_self]

well its official.

shaun is leaving tomorrow. for 9 weeks

we had a party tonite

it was fun, laughter, tears, and all kinds of stuff all smooshed together into this great big pile of crying teenagers (with a few adults thrown in)

we had this kind of roast thing.....it was very entertaining

someone said some things that really needed to be said and i think he will be better for it

we are all going to miss him so much

i didnt realize until tonite how much he has affected me

there will always be a place for him in my heart no matter how far away from us he is

haha my mom said we were all acting like he was dying and he isnt even leaving the state.

and she has a point

but i dont think she understands

for us he might as well be dead cause he isnt going to be here

but i know this is for the best and this is what god has in store for him and he will come back a better person from this

its just hard

and i know there are people who are having a harder time than i am with this but......it still hurts

i dont know

i have run out of things to say

and i know this is like one of the longest things i have ever posted on here but.....oh well

and if you have read all this and put up with my rambling

i applaud you

good job

here's a cookie

alrightyeahbye