pissed off
today i am not so happy, cameron has pissed me off. he called me and was just actin stupid. i think i finally need to stop trying to get back with him because he obviously just wants to play games. then i am leaving the mall and i put my bags in the trunk and somebody hit my car and like messed up the back. i was so upset! then i get home and call cameron back like i told him i would and he was like actin dumb again. so i went on and hurt his little feelings, and told him that i just wanted to be friends, and that my kids could call him uncle and not daddy. he got so mad i thought it was funny. he was like u just hurt my feelings and he got off the phone. ya'll i feel like the third person and i know i said i liked it but i really don't.i tried to make myself be happy with that situation. only because he was still talking to me. i feel like the person he call when he is trying to get back at his girl. so i think i just need to end that, he is taking my love for him and just using it. i feel like he is taking my strongness for weakness. i am just sad and upset. i don't like feeling like this, and i am not going to continue to feel like this. so i am just going to TRY to let that go. my heart is like don't waste your time. because if i continue to allow him to hurt me, then the scar on my heart will be even bigger and deeper.and it will take longer to fix. i know ya'll who are reading this is thinking i am always having problems with him and i just need to leave him alone, and ya'll are thinkin that i look stupid. well i finally see that i look dumb, and that he is using me, so just pray for me.