If you ever let me go, I'll walk as far as past the sun
Yesterday was a scary thought: Did I really lose him this time?
I'm so confused. I say it's in my nature to move on, but I have the doubt in my heart, my mind, it's blinding me. I never asked for any of this to come my way. I feel horrible, but I think I put the blame on Chris for so much, that I didn't realize my mistakes. While the heart is hurting, it does things to not feel anything.
I never wanted to be cut out or thrown away, but I felt like that to begin with. I've felt like I was constantly being written down, and then thrown in the trash, reused for recycling.
Seeing your face one last time put so much pain and weight and hurt in my heart that I couldn't take it. What do you want me to do? Want me to go on the edge and commit suicide? You may or may not care, but you run through my veins every single second. Every breath, every word that escapes my lips, the essence of you is around me. Now that you don't want me around due to the fact I may or may not have met someone, you shouldn't read into things too heavily. You over react. I want the best for you but you never really sat me down to know the consequences. What are the consequences?
I still want you to come to me, for you and I know each other inside and out. We know we are changing into better people, but are we changing into better people without each other? Why do you want to be my friend knowing I have all the love in the world to give to you and then some? I gave and I still give you everything. No matter what we do we can never cut each other out of our lives, our love runs deep.
With each passing my minute of the day that I don't think of you, your smile, your eyes, your arms, your stance, the strength that I feel radiating from you. Such passion, that I never wanted to lose in my life. Cause you bring the fire out of me, the excitement, the adrenaline. You are my everything, and not only are you all those things, you are my life.
Those were the words you uttered to me the night that I had my trip. I never forgot them, and they mean so much to me. You don't remember, but I do. You brought me back to the surface, and I felt like we made a milestone in our relationship. I thought this would change things for us and we can really talk about everything that we feel and the things we want to do in our lives and our future. You said after my trip "There are some things in our relationship that I really need to evaluate, this takes our relationship to a whole new level."
Where has that gone? It cannot have disappeared within the few weeks of this break up. Everything is falling from my grasp and I can't control what is going on. You saw my face, you saw the pain that it felt of not being with you. Being friends with you is hurting, but I am willing to try. Things are making a new perspective for me, and I really want to see if this can work. Only if you are still willing to give me that chance at least in your life.
I love you, I'm so in love with you. That may scare you, but you have the key to save what's left of this heart.
I'm so confused. I say it's in my nature to move on, but I have the doubt in my heart, my mind, it's blinding me. I never asked for any of this to come my way. I feel horrible, but I think I put the blame on Chris for so much, that I didn't realize my mistakes. While the heart is hurting, it does things to not feel anything.
I never wanted to be cut out or thrown away, but I felt like that to begin with. I've felt like I was constantly being written down, and then thrown in the trash, reused for recycling.
Seeing your face one last time put so much pain and weight and hurt in my heart that I couldn't take it. What do you want me to do? Want me to go on the edge and commit suicide? You may or may not care, but you run through my veins every single second. Every breath, every word that escapes my lips, the essence of you is around me. Now that you don't want me around due to the fact I may or may not have met someone, you shouldn't read into things too heavily. You over react. I want the best for you but you never really sat me down to know the consequences. What are the consequences?
I still want you to come to me, for you and I know each other inside and out. We know we are changing into better people, but are we changing into better people without each other? Why do you want to be my friend knowing I have all the love in the world to give to you and then some? I gave and I still give you everything. No matter what we do we can never cut each other out of our lives, our love runs deep.
With each passing my minute of the day that I don't think of you, your smile, your eyes, your arms, your stance, the strength that I feel radiating from you. Such passion, that I never wanted to lose in my life. Cause you bring the fire out of me, the excitement, the adrenaline. You are my everything, and not only are you all those things, you are my life.
Those were the words you uttered to me the night that I had my trip. I never forgot them, and they mean so much to me. You don't remember, but I do. You brought me back to the surface, and I felt like we made a milestone in our relationship. I thought this would change things for us and we can really talk about everything that we feel and the things we want to do in our lives and our future. You said after my trip "There are some things in our relationship that I really need to evaluate, this takes our relationship to a whole new level."
Where has that gone? It cannot have disappeared within the few weeks of this break up. Everything is falling from my grasp and I can't control what is going on. You saw my face, you saw the pain that it felt of not being with you. Being friends with you is hurting, but I am willing to try. Things are making a new perspective for me, and I really want to see if this can work. Only if you are still willing to give me that chance at least in your life.
I love you, I'm so in love with you. That may scare you, but you have the key to save what's left of this heart.