He's being awfully mean to me ..

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Lately ever since me and Chris broke up .. its like he's completely mean to me.
I hate it,its just i understand your still mad at me,but god.

Don't be mean,or just don't talk to me at all.
Its not fair,everything sucks.

&& its not normal of me .. i've had thoughts of suicide lately.
I'm going to slap myself cause that's not like me.

I've been so depressed that its getting the better half of my life.
can't smile anymore,laugh all the things i used to do.

Since chris isn't in my life things are diffrent.
&& sad ..i wish things were diffrent ..
I feel like he hates me.

I don't know.

I feel like i can write privately in here.
What i feel,my real age,etc.

Oh wait .. cause noone read its.
That's right.

I think i might make this private soon.
With the way things are going i suggest it should be im not sure im debating at this point.

"Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe"