You can tell by the time that I must be losing my mind...
I can't keep living my life like this.
School is on my mind.
I have the mentality that if I fail, then I can go back. Only, I don't want to go back. I wanna say that I know I can do this and actually do it. The work isn't a problem- I'm too smart for it to be. It's making myself do the work that is the problem. Where is my goddamn control? What happened to me?
Friday Night- Cook's party was the bomb diggity. I looove people when they're drunk. It's all so funny. The highlight was most definitely Tiffany being there. Man on man were those some interesting times...
Saturday Night- Partied with Will, Jereme, Jessica, and Kandrea. That was a pretty good night but it can't even compare to Friday.
I'm actually sober right now and I'm pretty sure I can't sleep. I'm too busy thinking about how pathetic I am. I don't know why I do the things that I do to myself.
Big trouble losing control,
Primary resistance at a critical low,
On the…on the double gotta get a hold,
Point of no return a second to go
School is on my mind.
I have the mentality that if I fail, then I can go back. Only, I don't want to go back. I wanna say that I know I can do this and actually do it. The work isn't a problem- I'm too smart for it to be. It's making myself do the work that is the problem. Where is my goddamn control? What happened to me?
Friday Night- Cook's party was the bomb diggity. I looove people when they're drunk. It's all so funny. The highlight was most definitely Tiffany being there. Man on man were those some interesting times...
Saturday Night- Partied with Will, Jereme, Jessica, and Kandrea. That was a pretty good night but it can't even compare to Friday.
I'm actually sober right now and I'm pretty sure I can't sleep. I'm too busy thinking about how pathetic I am. I don't know why I do the things that I do to myself.
Big trouble losing control,
Primary resistance at a critical low,
On the…on the double gotta get a hold,
Point of no return a second to go