and as i predict, it will just get worse...
well life has been quite interesting lately...filled with tears. grr...i'll start...umm wednesday afternoon. after school i was gonna bring lindsay home and my mom called. great granddaddy died. (sarcasm) this really brightened my week up alot. but i brought lindsay home and jerry called. well he was being an asshole like usual so i hung up, and did so about three times. so i finally called him back to see wat he wanted and he chewed me out saying that all he wanted was to see if i wanted to eat with him and barb. why the hell would i want to go eat with someone that was just being an asshole to me?
went to school thursday...sucked as usual. afterschool i went and met up with curtis and ben at dominos. chilled with them for a few minutes. stopped by my house and went to see will, then went to my moms. i wasn't there an hour and we left to go to georgia. got to the hotel at about one thier time. yesterday we didn't do hardly anything, cept go to the wake, which wasn't that great. i sat and thought ALOT. then back at the hotel my mom kicked us out of our room so she could get dustin to sleep...so i hung out with matt, kevin, daniel, lindsey(guy), jessica and deborah. they're pretty cool. matt and deborah are way older, but kevin is 13..hes really funny. jessica and lindsey are 21 i think, and daniel is 19...that kid is crazy. he thought the luggage holder was a chair. (he had a few beers by then) he was like "where did you get that awesome chair?!" i was like you idiot! its a luggage holder! he was like thanks jessica i feel like an idiot now. at about 11 their time dwayne made us go in bcuz we had to get up at 6:30. this morning...i cried. i know i didn't know the guy all that well, but the times i did hang out with him he was awesome. and keith was crying. i hate seeing men cry. it kills me.....but then we went back to aunt margies. did nothing. then came home. but now i'm going to try not to take anything or anyone forgranted. bcuz you never know when you might lose it or them. no matter how bad it gets...you'll learn and benefit from it....eventually.
now i'm sitting here...crying again (i figure if i cry alot now, i wont cry that much when curtis leaves...i wont have no more tears left....riiight). on a lighter note...i somewhat talked to derek today. he said he'd call tomorrow...thats a lie. guys suck at lying. they can sit there and lie to you with a straight face and your still gonna end up finding out. i dont get the point in lying...eventually the person will find out and it'll just get you into trouble...why bother?
*sigh* jerry just called to apologize about being an ass and to see wat was wrong with me. now i feel bad for hanging up on him. =\
well i'm gonna go for now. not sure wat i'll do...but i'm out
i love you <3