My First Concert was KICKASS RAD!!!
Alrighty, so Munchkin, Jason, and I went to the Less Than Jake concert this past Saturday. It was fuckin rad! I bout lost my mind because I was having so much fun. It was one of those nights where you really wish it never ended. We got there early because Jason and his friend Dave were coming from Talla. I was stoked. The openers were awesome. The last one was the best though. The other ones were too emo kinda and it didn't fit in... But when LTJ came on we moved into the middle of the crowd right by the mosh pit and we rocked all night! It was fuckin rad! That's the only thing I can say. I don't know...rad fits the concert so well. Munchkin and I both lost our voices and I am still straining whenever I try to sing. My voice'll break off and it sucks! I can't wait till it comes back!!!
I got a new bedspread today and it's rad! It's called Tattoo Sheets and has a bunch of stars and other tat designs all over it! STOKED! School has been going alright. Long and boring in English, rad in pstchology. I wish I could major in writing though. I would be a lot happier but whatever...I would be EXTREMELY happy if I could go somewhere with my writing and my singing but I know that's never going to happen. I'm trying to come to grips with the thought that my dreams are never going to be lived. I wish I could save up money and get the hell out of the US. Just go to London or Italy and live there fer a few years. Go to school and come back...or maybe not even come back! Then it sucks when I thought about missing my family and my few friends I have left.
Everyone has changed. They're still in that stage of drugs and drinking and partying constantly and I am out of it. I don't want to waste my life and worry about all of my friends anymore ODing off the fuckin pills they're popping. It's bullshit to waste yer life like this. They're never going to amount to anything...and if they do, they're just destroying themselves more and more with every pill popped and every blunt smoked. All of my friends who want to chill still, want to go and fulfill they're high, when I am just like fuck it. I want away from that fuckin crowd, even if it means lonliness. I don't give two shits. I need the fuck out of this town...out of this damn country would be wonderful! I need to get my AA and go to a university where I can do the studying overseas in another country. I really wish I could. I want to go to London and study music. Or Italy and study the language. I crave imagination. I crave new ideas and searching for things I will never reach. I crave music, and new windows opening for new chances. But it seems they're not coming...er atleast not soon enough. I need a change. I need to become the person that is here now...and not fall back on the drugs and drinking like most of my friends are doing now. I crave a new life. Why can't it be handed to me? Not a new life as of getting rid of my family, I fuckin love my family; new life as new beginning...a move if so. I need out of this shit hole. I feel like I am deteriorating every single passing minute...I need INSPIRATION
I got a new bedspread today and it's rad! It's called Tattoo Sheets and has a bunch of stars and other tat designs all over it! STOKED! School has been going alright. Long and boring in English, rad in pstchology. I wish I could major in writing though. I would be a lot happier but whatever...I would be EXTREMELY happy if I could go somewhere with my writing and my singing but I know that's never going to happen. I'm trying to come to grips with the thought that my dreams are never going to be lived. I wish I could save up money and get the hell out of the US. Just go to London or Italy and live there fer a few years. Go to school and come back...or maybe not even come back! Then it sucks when I thought about missing my family and my few friends I have left.
Everyone has changed. They're still in that stage of drugs and drinking and partying constantly and I am out of it. I don't want to waste my life and worry about all of my friends anymore ODing off the fuckin pills they're popping. It's bullshit to waste yer life like this. They're never going to amount to anything...and if they do, they're just destroying themselves more and more with every pill popped and every blunt smoked. All of my friends who want to chill still, want to go and fulfill they're high, when I am just like fuck it. I want away from that fuckin crowd, even if it means lonliness. I don't give two shits. I need the fuck out of this town...out of this damn country would be wonderful! I need to get my AA and go to a university where I can do the studying overseas in another country. I really wish I could. I want to go to London and study music. Or Italy and study the language. I crave imagination. I crave new ideas and searching for things I will never reach. I crave music, and new windows opening for new chances. But it seems they're not coming...er atleast not soon enough. I need a change. I need to become the person that is here now...and not fall back on the drugs and drinking like most of my friends are doing now. I crave a new life. Why can't it be handed to me? Not a new life as of getting rid of my family, I fuckin love my family; new life as new beginning...a move if so. I need out of this shit hole. I feel like I am deteriorating every single passing minute...I need INSPIRATION