you wonder what went on, it's there and then it's gone
i think maybe i cracked the code as to why i am so stressed. it's extremely difficult to explain it completely though, and would take too much energy if i tried. i will leave it at the fact that living with my grandma takes a lot out of me and everyone else in this house, and there are many times when i wish i could just walk out and not have to worry about it. last saturday i woke up at 5:30 in the morning because my grandma was yelling for my mom. i don't get enough sleep because i stay up late doing homework because it's the only time i can be on the computer without my grandma constantly yelling for me to come into her room to ask stupid questions like if i got a hair cut or where my mom is or what day of the week it is. not to mention that the only good thing about my dad moving out was that i didn't have to deal with him and my mom fighting constantly, but now my mom and my grandma just fight constantly and it is almost as frustrating as it used to be.
i know that it sounds kind of ridiculous and whiney, but trust me, you would not understand unless you lived here.
this is definitely a big part of why i have felt really crappy lately. because it just gets to be too much sometimes. i would like to have a normal day where i didn't have to worry about taking care of a 78 year old woman who can barely get out of bed anymore.
i wish that i didn't feel crappy anymore. thanks to amoxicillin i can now breathe out of my nose, but aside from being sick i just all around do not feel that great lately. i apologize if i've been bitchy to anyone lately, but i'm just going through another one of my 'i'm sick of granville and all the people in it' phases. it is also a combination of a hundred other things. mostly, i think i am just really scared because my senior year is halfway over. i need to stop being so emo.
i know that it sounds kind of ridiculous and whiney, but trust me, you would not understand unless you lived here.
this is definitely a big part of why i have felt really crappy lately. because it just gets to be too much sometimes. i would like to have a normal day where i didn't have to worry about taking care of a 78 year old woman who can barely get out of bed anymore.
i wish that i didn't feel crappy anymore. thanks to amoxicillin i can now breathe out of my nose, but aside from being sick i just all around do not feel that great lately. i apologize if i've been bitchy to anyone lately, but i'm just going through another one of my 'i'm sick of granville and all the people in it' phases. it is also a combination of a hundred other things. mostly, i think i am just really scared because my senior year is halfway over. i need to stop being so emo.