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the past 44 hours have been super tough. my eyes are still burning from all the crying and my voice hurts from all the talking, yelling etc etc. to make this long story short, i dont wanna loose my everything to something stupid. and i know he feels the same way too. i dont wanna be with anyone else in the fcuked up world because he protects me and makes me feel important in this world. he hates to see me how i am sometimes. it kills him to see me like that. regardless of the past 44 hours and feeling empty and alone and upset, everything is okay. he always says it always will be. i just need to lighten up and realize that its not so bad to be HAPPY and actually feel it. i love you more than anything matthew and i know you feel the same way. im glad that we're still together [awww baby you just called me just now to tell me you wanna see me tmrw]. but yes, youre all i will ever need in this life. everything in my life is so retarded, but you make it worthwhile. you make me want to LIVE. i love you to the moon and back.
so today was my last day of work. and i can officially say i miss it already haha. its not the place, but i miss the people. or how can i say it differently. i miss loving on hating on people. people who know me well understand what i mean. it was a good summer job. basically doing NOTHING and getting paid for it. i had good times, i had super BAD times. oh well im moving on ...
im too lazy yes i copied and pasted this from msn spaces.
but i will add more .. later haha
so today was my last day of work. and i can officially say i miss it already haha. its not the place, but i miss the people. or how can i say it differently. i miss loving on hating on people. people who know me well understand what i mean. it was a good summer job. basically doing NOTHING and getting paid for it. i had good times, i had super BAD times. oh well im moving on ...
im too lazy yes i copied and pasted this from msn spaces.
but i will add more .. later haha