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[loserbob4]

i'm stuck in a confusing place. i got a call from heather last night at midnight with her telling me to sneak out and come and see her. i don't mind hanging out with her at all. but from talking to her on the phone last night, i feel like i'm in the place between her likeing me and us dating, and then her not likeing me anymore than a friend and us not dating. i wish i knew for certain which one it was. its just almost like everytime i get to feel right that i no longer like her and that i no longer have a girl friend, she calls me up. i don't mind her calling, i really don't. i wouldn't even mind dating again, though i think it might be a little weird at first and it would probably not work out. i don't know, i wish i just knew exactly where i was in that relationship right now. i wish i knew if i was simply her person she went to when there was no one else to hang out with or to do something with...or if i was really a real go to person. like i was the only go to person.

i'm very glad school is almost over, if it were any longer i would probably fail myself out of passing this year.