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So last night, I finally decided to let Missie in on what everyone else who reads this journal already knows. She comes over, and literally, it was like none of the pain, isolation, and anger ever existed. The hardest part was spitting it out(no pun intended). There's really no easy way to break that to someone who has been completely oblivious. But when I told her, she was really understanding and nice about it. Her and Dee hugged me and I just felt so much better. I honestly think alot of my anger towards her was just me needing SOMETHING to be angry at. I know she hasn't been trying to isolate us, I know she feels the same way we do. We just need to do more of what we did last night: Make plans to get together and go through with them. It was a really great night, up to when we went over to Andrew's. I feel so bad for Dee, I don't know WHAT Ross, Andrew, and Ryan are trying to do to her. She deserves better then this, but I don't know what to do to fix it. I just really want to be as good of a friend to her as she's been to me. And so far, I suck at it.