i cry enternally every day

[loser_ryan]

Sitting in my english class was never the funest thing ever. it still isnt the funnest thing ever, but god bless mrs.taylor (and just so you all know i would have dated mrs.taylor if she was 15 in a second) today we watched "life is beautiful" or something like that..i dont remeber the exact translation because it was in italian. Naturally for all of you that have seen it you have wept for what happends,for the pain,for those millions of people...that are here and sadly not here. I read the book night right before seeing this movie(book and movie about the holocaust-prolly spelled wrong). Honestly...this crushes me everyday now, i cry inside for those millions of people who have either lost their life or is so distorted because of this. Put our lifes in perspective with theirs, what if you lost lets say a girlfriend or a boyfriend (by lost i meen broke up not dead) do not get me wrong it is a horriable thing! and your heart..dosent feel the same i know this i promise you. But its better then seeing your relatives..your sisters or brother be killed in a creamatory..to smell your relatives rotting flesh. But worst of all get used to it for years and do not become affected by it. If you do you become mad then the would kill you anyway!...you had to be heartless,and in the end they didnt care about anything. Father and son..turned against each other..over a piece of bread. it brings tears to my eyes just typing it,and all i am saying is this one thing...be happy with what you have. Complain, yell, and you have every right to do so..but relize it can be oh so much worst

so much worst,
always a pleasure...
Ryan M Willard
(ill always think of julia with my live journal)