something crafty to be put in my titile, but alas. it was not to be
In the midst of my confusion, in the horrible loneliness that consumes me. I look to one thing, faith. I try to realize that this is the lords will. But I can’t stop morning, the nights are horrible and the mornings are unbearable. I remember about a year ago, with Joan of arc. That very entry I wrote was the meeting of a girl I still love. In fact, if anything I have learned from this is that love isn’t everything that can keep a relationship in tact. I remember Laura, the friendship we had and the moments we have spent. I remember the movies we have watched, the tears we have shed. The “what are you doings?” as she slowly put her arm around mine, watching napoleon dynamite. I will miss her so much, and I have a feeling that friendship will spurt out of this. It will take time, and it will take tears. I am so lonely right now, but I do have one thing, I have faith. And the tears that are flowing threw my eyes right now can only make my faith stronger.
I believe, when a relationship has ended, and you have loved that person. Your heart has somehow been given to them, or a part of it. And yet we come out with our heart, even though we never got it back. It is in their lives, in their past, in our past. That is the amazing thing about humans and faith. It can produce love and essentially a new heart when you feel nothing but emptiness. I’m not going to lie to you, I feel nothing but emptiness. But it’s the lords will. I will accept it as long as I can just see her some day, and she smiles and I smile, and we are both living. I wish nothing but happiness for a girl that gave me nothing but contentment. Nothing but love, and if love is giving a piece of you heart in trust, and you never get it back. Then I can honestly say that I will love you in essence forever. You are my kiddo.
I have to stop typing now, I cant see the screen.
Call me sometime anyone (301-491-6333)
I believe, when a relationship has ended, and you have loved that person. Your heart has somehow been given to them, or a part of it. And yet we come out with our heart, even though we never got it back. It is in their lives, in their past, in our past. That is the amazing thing about humans and faith. It can produce love and essentially a new heart when you feel nothing but emptiness. I’m not going to lie to you, I feel nothing but emptiness. But it’s the lords will. I will accept it as long as I can just see her some day, and she smiles and I smile, and we are both living. I wish nothing but happiness for a girl that gave me nothing but contentment. Nothing but love, and if love is giving a piece of you heart in trust, and you never get it back. Then I can honestly say that I will love you in essence forever. You are my kiddo.
I have to stop typing now, I cant see the screen.
Call me sometime anyone (301-491-6333)