why do i always fall

[loser_lexi]

I always fall for the Unattainable
i can ever love one
who understands
how i feel
why i dont
cry those tears that want to fall
it used to be fine id let them use me
but now I crave a release
from the torture
i felt like i could survive
without the feelings
staying numb within the confines
and then I fell in love
my emotions spiral
i cant tell them how i feel
and i always fall from the graces
of heaven or hell
i can never fix
the emotions ive destroyed to forget the pain

thats my newest poem what do u think?

i know it sux but whatever