a lesson in paper planes
slowly i feel life draining from me.
forming a abyss where my heart once layed.
when times should be happy, why cant i find that certain woah to make myself smile?
instead tears form fearlessly behind my bloodshot eyes.
i just want to be home.
so many questions race through my mind..
and not one answer can be found anywhere.
i think youre amazing.
i think youre perfect.
i think im falling.
my heart awaits for that alignment with your crystal blues.
so you can gaze deeply into my soul.
while i spill words like blood on paper.
and yet at the same.. maybe those knots are fear of what could happen.
im constantly pushing myself towards one, but not the other.
the one that is magnificent in so many ways.
the one that i could find myself, face in concrete for.
the one that i know is partially everything i've ever wanted.
the one that can hurt me the most.
where as the boy that would be so pure and genuine... i try to push myself away.
only to find a deeper lust.
UHHHGGGGGGGGGG
i have asked myself time and time again, as to why i do this.
why do i always set myself up for heartache?
the again. the one that would never hurt me, already has by living 5 hours away.
this fucking sucks.
but for other news.
gabe scored me and tash all access passes for warped tour in michigan.
so next thursday we will be heading that way (expect an update via sidekick).
part of me thinks that this is to good to be true, but why would he make us drive all the way up there, himself included?
i havnt believed him before.. but he manages to prove me wrong.
anyways.. forever in a day will be playing.
which is exciting to the mother fucking max! =]
so warped is friday, then we will be traveling to battle creek michigan to see i,sleepwalker with war of ages.
woot!
im pretty stoked about all that.
next weekend is going to be amazing.
and tash will get to see her boo.
pukes
even though the moment i dread will arise...
when your eyes meet mine.
the worst thing about the situation though, is my friends have told me not to fall under your spell.
that your no good.
that you do this to everyone.
that youre a fake.
why do i see past all of that?
and feel i know you better than them?
possibly because i do.
uhh why is this so fucking hard.
i am better than her.
forming a abyss where my heart once layed.
when times should be happy, why cant i find that certain woah to make myself smile?
instead tears form fearlessly behind my bloodshot eyes.
i just want to be home.
so many questions race through my mind..
and not one answer can be found anywhere.
i think youre amazing.
i think youre perfect.
i think im falling.
my heart awaits for that alignment with your crystal blues.
so you can gaze deeply into my soul.
while i spill words like blood on paper.
and yet at the same.. maybe those knots are fear of what could happen.
im constantly pushing myself towards one, but not the other.
the one that is magnificent in so many ways.
the one that i could find myself, face in concrete for.
the one that i know is partially everything i've ever wanted.
the one that can hurt me the most.
where as the boy that would be so pure and genuine... i try to push myself away.
only to find a deeper lust.
UHHHGGGGGGGGGG
i have asked myself time and time again, as to why i do this.
why do i always set myself up for heartache?
the again. the one that would never hurt me, already has by living 5 hours away.
this fucking sucks.
but for other news.
gabe scored me and tash all access passes for warped tour in michigan.
so next thursday we will be heading that way (expect an update via sidekick).
part of me thinks that this is to good to be true, but why would he make us drive all the way up there, himself included?
i havnt believed him before.. but he manages to prove me wrong.
anyways.. forever in a day will be playing.
which is exciting to the mother fucking max! =]
so warped is friday, then we will be traveling to battle creek michigan to see i,sleepwalker with war of ages.
woot!
im pretty stoked about all that.
next weekend is going to be amazing.
and tash will get to see her boo.
pukes
even though the moment i dread will arise...
when your eyes meet mine.
the worst thing about the situation though, is my friends have told me not to fall under your spell.
that your no good.
that you do this to everyone.
that youre a fake.
why do i see past all of that?
and feel i know you better than them?
possibly because i do.
uhh why is this so fucking hard.
i am better than her.