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as of yesterday i will NEVER be able to have sleep over with my dearly beloved sarah ever ever ever again because i now know that her father hates me because he thinks that i introduced sharpies to sarah and i make her do things. i got ths from sharpies..i diagnosed my self with it (t
oxic headache syndrome) because my headaches never go away and they only happen when i look at bright lights its scary jackie begs me not to anymore but i want to so badly either do that or slit my wrists but since im not allowed to sniff or cut<-because sarah said not to i've decided that push pins are my only resort. ryan gave me his green one.. i lost it so i had to steal one from goebles room so i dont cut my self with them i just kinda stick them through the dead skin on my finger tips sometimes it hurts but its kinda relieving but its not that harmful i dont bleed or anything so i guess its not that bad. it'll never really be as helpful as cutting or sharpies were but..i just hope sarahs parents dont make her show them any of this because then im just like ...fucked.
oxic headache syndrome) because my headaches never go away and they only happen when i look at bright lights its scary jackie begs me not to anymore but i want to so badly either do that or slit my wrists but since im not allowed to sniff or cut<-because sarah said not to i've decided that push pins are my only resort. ryan gave me his green one.. i lost it so i had to steal one from goebles room so i dont cut my self with them i just kinda stick them through the dead skin on my finger tips sometimes it hurts but its kinda relieving but its not that harmful i dont bleed or anything so i guess its not that bad. it'll never really be as helpful as cutting or sharpies were but..i just hope sarahs parents dont make her show them any of this because then im just like ...fucked.