w0w everythings like a rollercoaster
w0w everythings so crazy n "insane" lol...ugh i had basketball camp all week @ rivier thursday i went 2 greely w/ kristina KRISTINA..ive missed her im so0o glad were talking again its such a good feeling..then i wont over her house n chilled w/ her..friday was the last day of camp..they had all these competitions like every year then awards..neways..friday night comes n i hafta as always fight w/ mom just 2 get out of the house..finally i got 2 amandas...I GOT 2 SLEEPOVER N B W/ MY SISTERS FINALLY...its been way too long..every1 was there :) manda andre mike adam dave kerri ashley~punk lol...we all left n went 2 mels n hit the batting cages..they all can actually hit too lol well besides adam but he kicked all our asses on the go karts haha :) mike n manda wouldnt move their asses outta the way haha mike even twirled amanda around n got a warning..damn n dre n manda were like beatin eachother near the picnic tables but dre def kicked her ass lol sorry amanda he won that 1! ashley i beat her up..haha well she got her bum hurt on the curd but besides that i was using my purse like grannys hit asshole guys in the street haha...daves def a woman beater he hit me in the head w/ a bat!! ok ok it was by accident :P but still!! lol mike stole my sunkist n like out me in my place...the ground..haha..dre thought he lost his keys when the whole time he left them in the car w/ the windows open n doors unlocked..which i knew cz i was like ur jus gunna leave it there? hes like yup lol..idk i kinda dont feel accepted..hopefully no1 reads this cz its in the middle but i jus need 2 get out how i feel..i see all of them as my friends that i can talk 2..but im afraid that dont see me as the same..im afraid they see me as..brandons ex gf..or amandas..dres gfs bff..saturday..me manda dre steve n dave all went 2 the movies near the mall..haha dre n dave found the village cardboard sign in the trash so they were gunna keep it..but we all went n watched the movie haha which i know steve n dave loved lol cz after the movie they attacked the sign ripped it apart...hmm i think they might have been mad bout wasting money on that dumb stupid shitty movie!!! AHH it sucked if u read this make sure u DONT go see it lol..AMANDA YOUR MY CHERISHED 1!! STEVE i swear it was the guy from signs!! i swear..u called u were riight..u were def like that noah kid..cant believe u felt bad 4 him..u owe me nachos..
.. so much hurt i feel..i know it will pass..but i cant help wishing it wouldnt..i cant help wishing these memories wont pass..amanda u cant type, u cant talk, n u toot!!! haha good times..i cant deny i miss you..i cant deny i wanna text you or im you..i cant deny i wanna call you..but i wont make it harder on myself..my feelings are crazy..caring about people i never thought i would..afraid 2 put myself out there..afraid to show how i feel..its 2 late now things are mostly already out in the open..i guess ill see what happens..MONDAY was awesome..wildcat good times w/ mike amanda dre adam derrick steve lil nate
brian..MIKE u are awesome..i seriously feel like i can trust u so much..i feel like i can open up 2 you n talk 2 u bout stuff..thnx 4 stickin by me monday i know i was prolly a pest bein hesitant haha it was so worth it after i jumped off the 1st time which was awesome i was ready 2 run uo there n do it again..brian grr u make me so angry sumtimes but i think ur startin 2 turn in2 a guy i can actually say is a true cousin..ADAM ..haha u got me 2 go in the water..i prolly wouldnt have if it werent 4 you..i can actually talk 2 you n joke around w/ you w/o get ne rude "guy" comments lol..well most the time lol soo0 glad we finally found a fricken bathroom..yeah like i was really gunna piss on the drink shoppes floor lol..it kinda woulda been funny..nasty tho..DRE i swear when were im person u seriously act like u dont like bein around me @ all..but ill take ur word that u do..ill always b here 4 you 2 talk 2 i hope ya know that..ASHLEY P~U~N~K..haha damn u are the 1st 1 that really talked 2 me..when i 1st met u i seriously thought u hated me..now i hope you know im always here 4 you 2 talk 2..n i hope you can trust me..if not i hope sumday u know u can..u stopped me a lot of nights frum doin dum shit n im so glad u did..u helped me 2 realize that no matter what i gotta pick up n move on..ya always put a smile on my face..even though ur a HUGE pain in the ass i love ya!! lol ugghh i was gunna fricken kill LIL NATE last night grr he fricken spit on me..ill get him back o:)rite aid parking lot how fun was that.. dirty yucky clumpy n smelly milk splattered thnx 2 dave..it kinda stunk so much was goin on it was crazy..fricken decorating dres car w/ that stuff we found..omgosh cant 4get manda n dres car all around where brandon lives shes crazy went over that huge bump i hadda piss so bad!!..2day..monday..field day w/ amanda @ 10 in the morning till bout 1240 was fun WICKED hott though..lol all the explorers are pretty fun...pretty cool..ryan stopped by :) which was awesome even though i had 2 like beg him 2 come hes a bum..then we hadda go 2 mandas so she could get ready then waited w/ her @ the police station cz i didnt wanna leave :( shes gone till wicked late thursday niight but JOANN (2ND MOM):)said i can go over again friday YaY :) if mom lets me i cant wait 4 her 2 come back i hope things arent weird around certain people...ugh im worried..i hope things go ok..idk whats gunna happen frum here
I LOVE AMANDA MARIA JOHNSTON
.. so much hurt i feel..i know it will pass..but i cant help wishing it wouldnt..i cant help wishing these memories wont pass..amanda u cant type, u cant talk, n u toot!!! haha good times..i cant deny i miss you..i cant deny i wanna text you or im you..i cant deny i wanna call you..but i wont make it harder on myself..my feelings are crazy..caring about people i never thought i would..afraid 2 put myself out there..afraid to show how i feel..its 2 late now things are mostly already out in the open..i guess ill see what happens..MONDAY was awesome..wildcat good times w/ mike amanda dre adam derrick steve lil nate
brian..MIKE u are awesome..i seriously feel like i can trust u so much..i feel like i can open up 2 you n talk 2 u bout stuff..thnx 4 stickin by me monday i know i was prolly a pest bein hesitant haha it was so worth it after i jumped off the 1st time which was awesome i was ready 2 run uo there n do it again..brian grr u make me so angry sumtimes but i think ur startin 2 turn in2 a guy i can actually say is a true cousin..ADAM ..haha u got me 2 go in the water..i prolly wouldnt have if it werent 4 you..i can actually talk 2 you n joke around w/ you w/o get ne rude "guy" comments lol..well most the time lol soo0 glad we finally found a fricken bathroom..yeah like i was really gunna piss on the drink shoppes floor lol..it kinda woulda been funny..nasty tho..DRE i swear when were im person u seriously act like u dont like bein around me @ all..but ill take ur word that u do..ill always b here 4 you 2 talk 2 i hope ya know that..ASHLEY P~U~N~K..haha damn u are the 1st 1 that really talked 2 me..when i 1st met u i seriously thought u hated me..now i hope you know im always here 4 you 2 talk 2..n i hope you can trust me..if not i hope sumday u know u can..u stopped me a lot of nights frum doin dum shit n im so glad u did..u helped me 2 realize that no matter what i gotta pick up n move on..ya always put a smile on my face..even though ur a HUGE pain in the ass i love ya!! lol ugghh i was gunna fricken kill LIL NATE last night grr he fricken spit on me..ill get him back o:)rite aid parking lot how fun was that.. dirty yucky clumpy n smelly milk splattered thnx 2 dave..it kinda stunk so much was goin on it was crazy..fricken decorating dres car w/ that stuff we found..omgosh cant 4get manda n dres car all around where brandon lives shes crazy went over that huge bump i hadda piss so bad!!..2day..monday..field day w/ amanda @ 10 in the morning till bout 1240 was fun WICKED hott though..lol all the explorers are pretty fun...pretty cool..ryan stopped by :) which was awesome even though i had 2 like beg him 2 come hes a bum..then we hadda go 2 mandas so she could get ready then waited w/ her @ the police station cz i didnt wanna leave :( shes gone till wicked late thursday niight but JOANN (2ND MOM):)said i can go over again friday YaY :) if mom lets me i cant wait 4 her 2 come back i hope things arent weird around certain people...ugh im worried..i hope things go ok..idk whats gunna happen frum here
I LOVE AMANDA MARIA JOHNSTON