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i suck. i called jamie today and told her that i was probably gunna just not do ROP anymore, and she said she sits alone at school. she already told me that she gets lonely in the office, cause we cant talk. i feel realy bad. i was the only person she knew, and like, theres gabriel, but hes just a guy and me and jamie used to talk about stuf and do everything together. we where like a team.
i was thinking about it, and im wondering.. does anyone at canyon really care that im not there or miss me? doubt it. and dont just say u do cause thats what people do.. i dunno. well, i miss seeing u guys. i thought i would be happy to be rid of that place.
my mom is ok with that i might just get a GED or take the Proficincy exam. infact she says if highschools not working just get the GED and get on to college. i like how i already said that to her before.. whatever. people tell me that im to smart for high school. i hate the stupid work.. i just want to learn shit worth knowing. like homer j. says, "everytime i learn something new it pushs something else out of my brain"...jk heh heh.
i feel like i egsute no more of what i used to.. my love for all things PUNK ROCK. i feel like a sell out, but how have i sold out? i guess i just dont have to fixate on it anymore. but i feel like im just like everyone else sometimes.. nah.. i dont want that.
tuesday..tuesday..tuesday..and she says i only pursute fun.. i pursute happiness, bitch. and fuck yea i pursute fun, if i cant have any of it when the time is right, why then, i will when its wrong. duh.
im..i want to go take a nap before youth. mm..15minute nap. its 5:34 alison if u see this go at 6:30
<3ciao