Jul 30, 2007 00:07
reasons to not "date" .. whatever that means.. him:
he flirts
he puts his bros before me
he doesnt tell me when he hangs out with other girls but expects me to
he doesnt know what he wants
he stresses which stresses me
hell call after he finishes the game of magic or
call before he starts his game of magic
we have a pretty fucked up past
theres always a reason im never a major priority
i dont feel special anymore
the relationship has gotten so old its boring
im going to davis in a few - berkeley is going to start and im going to be even more pushed back
i want something new
i want to talk to boys and not feel the need to tell him
i want to feel free - not that id do anything crazy..
im tired of serious relationships
our relationship isnt fun anymore
this "break up" .. or whatever want to call it.. is apparently a year long process.
reasons to "date" or whatever him:
its hard to ignore the feelings you have for someone despite knowing that itll for sure fuck you over - not even in the long run... probably the day later.
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it seems like i always have this problem.. but im older now.. and im suppose to be wiser. and i can do this. i can do better than what this relationship is.
i always say that.
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what the hell are me and kevin? people ask. i have no idea. i want to say we are nothing, we are trying to be friends. and well i am trying to be friends. but its hard to not want more. i need space from him to just.. be independent.. but how do leave the person you consider closest to you..
why couldnt you have been what i wanted you to be. - because people dont change for other people.
why couldnt i have compromised. - because people dont change for other people.