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Why does it feel like I'm losing. Why does it feel like I'm giving up and little Ms. Queen Bitch gets to win. I don't want her to win. She needs to think about me everyday like I think about her. She needs to long for me the way I long for her still. She needs to stop being a god damn bitch and go back to the girl I fucking fell in love with, and come back to me. I've never seen someone change so much into such a different and unlikable person. No one that close to me has ever had that happen. It's disappointing, sad, surprising, and upsetting because I no longer have any control. Oh did I mention I HATE being THAT GUY. Despise it. I hate her for making me become that guy, I hate her for claiming to care and truly not, I hate not being as important as some little fuck in high school, I hate feeling like I gave so much for 2 years and almost feeling like it was a waste of time. I hate getting glimpses of the old Darius Goldman and then her just ripping it away....Man fuck you.