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[lorzy3]

so i need to get some thing out not anger jsut a huge apoligy to my friends for the way i acted this year all my crazy behavor... the truth is some thing terrible happend earlyer this year that i told no one not even eric or my family about.... but lets just say it made me phycotic... and go in to horrible relapses with my cutting and all other issues and do to what happend some people got the brunt end of it and i just lost it but i tryed to hid it as well as possible which isent easy... because usualy when some thing horrible happens i dont hide it but this i have to for know it makes me feel dirty and i am not ready to talk about it but im relizing some thing i need to at least let people know some thing happend and that i apolagize for pushing people away or latching on and not facing the reality of the sittuation ad relationship (eric) and just acepting the friend ship.. but every oe i truly am sorry for every thing and im trying to move on from what happend but it insanly hard.. but im trying and i apreciate every one who has been there for me and cared enough to hang in there for as long as they did and have...

u guys are awsome and i love u all dearly...