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After reading some random journals, I got to thinking. And, again, my thoughts drifted to Jessica. She's been on my mind lately, and I think it's mainly because of Virginia's baby.
FYI: For those who don't know, Jessica is my dead sister. My parents lost her when she was very young, back when she was 3. Car crash, with my mother driving. Happened back in the early 80's, so of course I don't know her. Never did.
But... My aunt says that Virginia's baby is actually Jessica coming back. And I know it's dumb to think that, or to believe in those kinds of things... But I feel it. My aunt said she had to do a reading to find it out. I just knew. And it hurts me, you know? I feel like... If she comes back to hurt Virginia like she did my own mother.
The thing that a lot of people don't know is that Jessica knew she was going to die. She used to draw pictures of her being buried and swirls of crayons for the crash. I don't like to admit it... But I do believe in the paranormal. It scares me to know that she saw it coming, but didn't warn anyone or try to make my parents feel better.
The only good thing from her death was my father giving up on drinking. Because of her and a compact, he went from the verge of alcohol-poisoning on a nightly basis to dry for 20 years. He's a better person for it, but I don't think my mother has ever forgiven herself. It's... Hard to grow up in the shadow of someone who's dead.
...End. I don't feel like writing anymore.
FYI: For those who don't know, Jessica is my dead sister. My parents lost her when she was very young, back when she was 3. Car crash, with my mother driving. Happened back in the early 80's, so of course I don't know her. Never did.
But... My aunt says that Virginia's baby is actually Jessica coming back. And I know it's dumb to think that, or to believe in those kinds of things... But I feel it. My aunt said she had to do a reading to find it out. I just knew. And it hurts me, you know? I feel like... If she comes back to hurt Virginia like she did my own mother.
The thing that a lot of people don't know is that Jessica knew she was going to die. She used to draw pictures of her being buried and swirls of crayons for the crash. I don't like to admit it... But I do believe in the paranormal. It scares me to know that she saw it coming, but didn't warn anyone or try to make my parents feel better.
The only good thing from her death was my father giving up on drinking. Because of her and a compact, he went from the verge of alcohol-poisoning on a nightly basis to dry for 20 years. He's a better person for it, but I don't think my mother has ever forgiven herself. It's... Hard to grow up in the shadow of someone who's dead.
...End. I don't feel like writing anymore.