(no subject)
i decided i'm done question and needing reassurance.
i'm taking each day as it goes, and if something bad happens.. then it happens.
and if it doesn't, then even better. i can't control peoples feelings, i can't make someone think something else.
i'm anxious and excited for the coming months. i have 4 full months here, anything can happen in four months.
the best way to handle my last couple months here is to just enjoy every day of it, try and take it all in. and have no regrets.
and what i also learned is before my grandpa died he told me i should never go to sleep if i have something to tell someone because who knows if i'll wake up in the morning to be able to tell them.
I think otherwise. some things i want to say, but they don't need to be said. some things just have to be kept quiet and wait for everything to unfold, see where it all ends up. i'm happier then i've been in a very long time, sometimes he drives me insane but god does he make me happy. but if in 4 months it ends up not working out it's not going to be the end of the world, and realizing that helps alot. don't get me wrong i hope to god it works out, but if it doesn't.. i'll eventually move on.
anyways i just wanted to get some stuff out.
this weekend was good i spent it mainly with alex, 2 sleepoverss. whooo. it was fun.
i'm taking each day as it goes, and if something bad happens.. then it happens.
and if it doesn't, then even better. i can't control peoples feelings, i can't make someone think something else.
i'm anxious and excited for the coming months. i have 4 full months here, anything can happen in four months.
the best way to handle my last couple months here is to just enjoy every day of it, try and take it all in. and have no regrets.
and what i also learned is before my grandpa died he told me i should never go to sleep if i have something to tell someone because who knows if i'll wake up in the morning to be able to tell them.
I think otherwise. some things i want to say, but they don't need to be said. some things just have to be kept quiet and wait for everything to unfold, see where it all ends up. i'm happier then i've been in a very long time, sometimes he drives me insane but god does he make me happy. but if in 4 months it ends up not working out it's not going to be the end of the world, and realizing that helps alot. don't get me wrong i hope to god it works out, but if it doesn't.. i'll eventually move on.
anyways i just wanted to get some stuff out.
this weekend was good i spent it mainly with alex, 2 sleepoverss. whooo. it was fun.