I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE.
I am done with life as I know it. If you are reading this then you are considered a close friend. Some closer than others but still...
I have been so stressed lately so I quit. I need just a few weeks to get myself together. With School, cheerleading, guys, friends, "friends", parents, and on and on I am literally about to have a nervous breakdown. So I quit.
I'm not stupid so i'm not gonna harm myself physically or worse... I'm simply gonna stop talking to anyone. You guy (the ones who read my journal are the first to know.) I'm quitting hanging out with anyone. I just quit.
Don't call me...if I answer I will hang up. If my family answers they will tell you that I am busy. Don't comment..I won't read them. Don't e-mail me..I won't answer them. Don't come see me..I won't let you inside. When I get everything together I will call you.
I honestly believe that I need some help. Beyond what any of you could give me. Professional help. If need be..a "shrink." I have been through way to much in the past 2 +/- years to possibly be as stable as you all think I am. Or even as stable as I thought I was. Obviously the answer is not very because I fell...hard. I can't take this anymore. I am possibly quitting cheerleading..and thats really all I have. Maybe after Thanksgiving i'll be better. It may take a week, two, or even a month. However much I need is what I am taking. For once in my life I am going to be selfish and think about myself for a change.
So this is, for now but not forever, Good-Bye.
-Sunshine
I have been so stressed lately so I quit. I need just a few weeks to get myself together. With School, cheerleading, guys, friends, "friends", parents, and on and on I am literally about to have a nervous breakdown. So I quit.
I'm not stupid so i'm not gonna harm myself physically or worse... I'm simply gonna stop talking to anyone. You guy (the ones who read my journal are the first to know.) I'm quitting hanging out with anyone. I just quit.
Don't call me...if I answer I will hang up. If my family answers they will tell you that I am busy. Don't comment..I won't read them. Don't e-mail me..I won't answer them. Don't come see me..I won't let you inside. When I get everything together I will call you.
I honestly believe that I need some help. Beyond what any of you could give me. Professional help. If need be..a "shrink." I have been through way to much in the past 2 +/- years to possibly be as stable as you all think I am. Or even as stable as I thought I was. Obviously the answer is not very because I fell...hard. I can't take this anymore. I am possibly quitting cheerleading..and thats really all I have. Maybe after Thanksgiving i'll be better. It may take a week, two, or even a month. However much I need is what I am taking. For once in my life I am going to be selfish and think about myself for a change.
So this is, for now but not forever, Good-Bye.
-Sunshine