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wow. i never write in here, but lets start now..
certain things have happened recently that have made me think about things, and rethink who my friends are..and me as a person..
lets start this off with friends..
Now, to me..friends are people that..will help you grow, and leave you room to grow as well. you're supposed to be able to trust those people, at least a few of them..with anything and everything..and out of your whole group you should come out with at least ONE person you can honestly say is your best friend . this means..not having to worry about them talking about you badly, ever..realizing the kind of person you are and accepting that, acting like a friend and listening to problems, no matter how much you don't want to..just so they'll feel better, not telling them what they have to do..much like a parent..because we all have parents in our lives for that specific job..and not being selfish either, and realizing the things you do for them and vice versa.
i find it extremely hurtful, and confusing that..girls i have called my best friends for 4..5 years now..can only seem to do some of these things.. and well one peron, and only one can seem to get past imperfections and just go out and be stupid w/you and laugh at anything and everything and accept you as a person.
i am fully aware that i am not the nicest person, but there is also something you should understand, i'm fine with myself. i'm comfortable with who i am. the word "bitch" doesn't offend me anymore, being called mean doesn't either..it's when mean is paired up with me not giving a shit about you or anyone else, that pisses me off.
mind you, i don't have to come over and visit, i never had to make time for you at all, i never had to answer your phone calls, or call you, or do anything of the sort, i never listen to any of your issues, i could've written you off, and REALLY been a bitch, and a "mean" person..
you've known me for how long, and you're just starting to throw that whole "you're so mean" card in my face? i think not. i was rude for one reason, and one only.. and you were definitely setting yourself up for it.."your mom" comments went out in middle school, and the fact that you have never spoken more than two words to my mother does NOT give you the right to be an immature, and extremely rude person and make a comment about her. it's not stupid for me to get mad over, because if i made a comment about someone in your family that meant a lot to you and that i didn't know from the next person, you would be pissed off as well. i'm not wrong there, and in this situation.. i was miss know it all, just like my mother, and i was right.
just because i do not go out of my way to sit and tell each of my friends that i love them to death, doesn't mean i'm an inconsiderate person, and it doesn't mean ANYTHING negative..because i don't see anyone doing that for me, but i just know you obviously appreciate me as a person, because we wouldn't be friends for so long if you didn't.
i'm on the edge of things now, and whether we all go back to being BEST FRIENDS..isn't a huge issue to me, i love each of you just the same, we've been through tons together..
but if you want me to accomodate you and be considerate, get over that i'm sarcastic, and i'm not gonna be this insanely nice person..because then i would be fake, and accept it, and move on.. i'm only mean when i think it's needed..that's it. and don't take what i say to heart unless you KNOW you have reason to.. if i say something to you, chances are i'm PROBABLY not attacking you. and get over it.. it's really not that mean.
certain things have happened recently that have made me think about things, and rethink who my friends are..and me as a person..
lets start this off with friends..
Now, to me..friends are people that..will help you grow, and leave you room to grow as well. you're supposed to be able to trust those people, at least a few of them..with anything and everything..and out of your whole group you should come out with at least ONE person you can honestly say is your best friend . this means..not having to worry about them talking about you badly, ever..realizing the kind of person you are and accepting that, acting like a friend and listening to problems, no matter how much you don't want to..just so they'll feel better, not telling them what they have to do..much like a parent..because we all have parents in our lives for that specific job..and not being selfish either, and realizing the things you do for them and vice versa.
i find it extremely hurtful, and confusing that..girls i have called my best friends for 4..5 years now..can only seem to do some of these things.. and well one peron, and only one can seem to get past imperfections and just go out and be stupid w/you and laugh at anything and everything and accept you as a person.
i am fully aware that i am not the nicest person, but there is also something you should understand, i'm fine with myself. i'm comfortable with who i am. the word "bitch" doesn't offend me anymore, being called mean doesn't either..it's when mean is paired up with me not giving a shit about you or anyone else, that pisses me off.
mind you, i don't have to come over and visit, i never had to make time for you at all, i never had to answer your phone calls, or call you, or do anything of the sort, i never listen to any of your issues, i could've written you off, and REALLY been a bitch, and a "mean" person..
you've known me for how long, and you're just starting to throw that whole "you're so mean" card in my face? i think not. i was rude for one reason, and one only.. and you were definitely setting yourself up for it.."your mom" comments went out in middle school, and the fact that you have never spoken more than two words to my mother does NOT give you the right to be an immature, and extremely rude person and make a comment about her. it's not stupid for me to get mad over, because if i made a comment about someone in your family that meant a lot to you and that i didn't know from the next person, you would be pissed off as well. i'm not wrong there, and in this situation.. i was miss know it all, just like my mother, and i was right.
just because i do not go out of my way to sit and tell each of my friends that i love them to death, doesn't mean i'm an inconsiderate person, and it doesn't mean ANYTHING negative..because i don't see anyone doing that for me, but i just know you obviously appreciate me as a person, because we wouldn't be friends for so long if you didn't.
i'm on the edge of things now, and whether we all go back to being BEST FRIENDS..isn't a huge issue to me, i love each of you just the same, we've been through tons together..
but if you want me to accomodate you and be considerate, get over that i'm sarcastic, and i'm not gonna be this insanely nice person..because then i would be fake, and accept it, and move on.. i'm only mean when i think it's needed..that's it. and don't take what i say to heart unless you KNOW you have reason to.. if i say something to you, chances are i'm PROBABLY not attacking you. and get over it.. it's really not that mean.