i need to start acting my age and it hurts a whole lot
so its 2006 and that means i graduate this year. weird. but the most weird thing is how absoluly horrible my fucking new years was. i just wnat to carwl into a ball and be like five again. bad shit doesnt happen when your five. the worst thing you have to worry about is kindergarden. i just wish i could forget about this new years from hell. i want a good old fashioned time travel and i want to not do the things i did and i want to say sorry and i just wnat to sleep. i havent slept since like yesterday.. i was a little preoccupied. and it all falls on me. the call fell on me.. the house was mine. the voice and phone was mine. i just was dumb to think i dont know whatever. sorry for this dumb post of extreme doom. i wat summer.. last summer i didnt have doom hanging around every corner. i avoided doom. i just had fun times and summer school.. which was undeniably ok .. fun even. you know i thought this year might have been a good one but now i realize that this is just going to be one of those years when you just have no luck at all. oh well karmas a bitch. dont you hate it when you wake up and realize that you arent five anymore. there are consequences to actions and god dammit there are other people in this world. to all who may read this and know what happened or was there dont say your sorry cuz you are not. you arent. you had fun and that was that no one else is sorry . just dont be something your not which in this case is sorry. it just pisses me off.. like dude im soo sorry... technically its my fault too and all that and i had a part in the doom and bad shit but hey only you got in trouble...so like im sorry.. no you are fucking not. anyway i just also want to say thanks to katherine and claire.. you two were the only ones who were completly real about the situation..and of course alex wood thanks for being you .. basically i know my year will at least be enertaining and filled with lots of snuggling if you hang out with me...i love you three and thanks i dont know why but yeah thanks