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[lorilu]

So I am having a really hard time trying not to be completely jealous right now. My dear friend Josh and his girlfriend Leslie have gotten engaged. Now they haven't been dating all that long, like 9 or 10 months I think. When Zac and I went to visit them last month they had told us that they were looking at rings but wouldn't get engaged for a while. But today was the day. And like I said, I'm having a real hard time not being jealous. Although I am jealous a little. Not that we are in any real hurry or anything, but Zac and I have been dating for almost 2 years. We've always agreed that we would wait and get married when I'm done with school. I will be done in about a year and a half and I know that's a long time to be engaged but I would kind of like something. I used to say I hated the idea of promise rings, but I kind of don't anymore. I think they're sweet. But really why not just get engaged. I don't care if we have a long engagement. And we talk about getting married all the time. Sometimes I feel like we're stuck and we're just going to stay this way. And I know that 2 years really isn't all that long but I'll be 27 next year and I would like to have at least 1 kid before I turn 30. I know that God may have other plans but I just need some reassurance that we are going somewhere other than being stuck.
I am however so incredibly happy for Josh and Leslie, no matter how jealous I am. They are so wonderful together. I could not have asked for a better girl for him!!