what goin on?
well, its been a while since ive updated, and i guess thats cuz there have been a bunch of things goin on, but im not really sure how to explain them in writing but here it goes... um, lets see, first things first, ive been sick a lot lately, at first i thought it was cuz i drank myself retarded last week enjoying my last week of freedom, but now im thinking its a bit of the stomach flu...yay *insert tons of sarcasm* ... and then ive come to the realization that i am doomed to be "one of the guys" for the rest of my life. which is cool and all, but it would also be nice to be viewed as a female once and a while. and for some reason ive been feeling really emotional lately, and im not sure why, or how to deal with it, cuz i am NOT an emotional person by any means. im usually just a very chill laid back person who doesnt worry herself about stupid bullshit, so when these crazy emotions like jealousy pop up in my head i dont quite know what to do with myself, so i just try to push it away with a smile, and pretend its not happening, which I KNOW is totally not the way to deal with it, but ive never had to deal with it before so im at a total loss on how to deal with it in a healthy manor. and people that i had almost forgotten about, or almost gotten over are coming back into my life, and while its fun and exciting its also strange and ackward at times.