it's 11:11...
and now you want to talk?
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine
what the hell happened????? we were so close for so long & i thought that we could really trust each other and then... of all people, i never expected you to be doing this. ok maybe i shouldn't be so surprised, considering you bash your so called "best friend" non stop. if you have a problem with me just say it. or are you scared if you say it to my face, everything will come out, and maybe you'll be the one who ends up looking bad? i don't know i hate to be thinking such awful things about you, but considering you won't even talk to me, it looks like i'm going to have to jump to conclusions. or maybe i'm just "overreacting" like i always do. of course i freaking overreact. maybe if i heard it straight from the source, instead of four degrees later, when it is undoubtedly exagerrated, especially considering who the person is telling me. or maybe i'm too busy talking about canada. or whatever. this is so stupid. maybe i don't like sitting at one house every.day.of.the.week. maybe i do want to make something more out of my summer than just that. if you don't want that, fine, then don't tell me that you do, then i wont call you to make plans. just stop poisoning all my friends against me. what the hell? because we're not in high school anymore, and i think you need to realize it. you can't try to keep someone close to you by badmouthing all of her other friends. it just doesn't work like that.
but at least a few good things came out of this. we're right back on track, definitely. that talk was one of the better ones we've had, at least about our friendship directly. we had to get a lot of things straightened out, and i think we did. i love you and i need you or else i'm not going to make it through... well, i wouldn't make it through anything without you :). & i am sorry about cornering you when you were smoking. i probably could have found a better way to do it, but i had a few in me and i was just like what the hell. and i don't know if you're lying or if she's lying, or you're both lying for that matter, but at least you were straight up with me. i hope you were being straight up with me.
and you... i am so excited for you! and worried for other reasons, but you're strong and can get through it & i'll help you in any way you can. & i think i'm getting closer to him, which is good, because i get that you guys are kinda a package now, and that's fine. he's a good one and even though i think you deserve better, someone who can really take care of you and give you everything you need, i know he makes you happy. which makes me happy.
other than that... boys are still a big thumbs down. i'm not even going to talk about that here. my head's too full
if this is what it takes just to lie with my mistakes
& live with what i did to you
all the hell i put you thru...
ps~ j.j. redick is going to orlando!!!!!!!! sheldon williams went THIRD woo duke 4 life!!!!
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine
what the hell happened????? we were so close for so long & i thought that we could really trust each other and then... of all people, i never expected you to be doing this. ok maybe i shouldn't be so surprised, considering you bash your so called "best friend" non stop. if you have a problem with me just say it. or are you scared if you say it to my face, everything will come out, and maybe you'll be the one who ends up looking bad? i don't know i hate to be thinking such awful things about you, but considering you won't even talk to me, it looks like i'm going to have to jump to conclusions. or maybe i'm just "overreacting" like i always do. of course i freaking overreact. maybe if i heard it straight from the source, instead of four degrees later, when it is undoubtedly exagerrated, especially considering who the person is telling me. or maybe i'm too busy talking about canada. or whatever. this is so stupid. maybe i don't like sitting at one house every.day.of.the.week. maybe i do want to make something more out of my summer than just that. if you don't want that, fine, then don't tell me that you do, then i wont call you to make plans. just stop poisoning all my friends against me. what the hell? because we're not in high school anymore, and i think you need to realize it. you can't try to keep someone close to you by badmouthing all of her other friends. it just doesn't work like that.
but at least a few good things came out of this. we're right back on track, definitely. that talk was one of the better ones we've had, at least about our friendship directly. we had to get a lot of things straightened out, and i think we did. i love you and i need you or else i'm not going to make it through... well, i wouldn't make it through anything without you :). & i am sorry about cornering you when you were smoking. i probably could have found a better way to do it, but i had a few in me and i was just like what the hell. and i don't know if you're lying or if she's lying, or you're both lying for that matter, but at least you were straight up with me. i hope you were being straight up with me.
and you... i am so excited for you! and worried for other reasons, but you're strong and can get through it & i'll help you in any way you can. & i think i'm getting closer to him, which is good, because i get that you guys are kinda a package now, and that's fine. he's a good one and even though i think you deserve better, someone who can really take care of you and give you everything you need, i know he makes you happy. which makes me happy.
other than that... boys are still a big thumbs down. i'm not even going to talk about that here. my head's too full
if this is what it takes just to lie with my mistakes
& live with what i did to you
all the hell i put you thru...
ps~ j.j. redick is going to orlando!!!!!!!! sheldon williams went THIRD woo duke 4 life!!!!