Waiting for the cookie to crumble
Yes. Pessimism has taken a hold of me once again.
I guess this is because 2008 is ending. Well, the dreaded year finally ends. I wish it wouldn't pass on its bad luck to 2009. With all the fights, drama and breakdowns I had to deal with, I don't think I can take anymore next year.
Oddly, Law and I are still together. Even when things were falling apart in other parts of my life, my lovelife is still intact. Yes, it's a shaky lovelife with its ups and downs. But he's still here.
I asked him if he would ever trade me for his first love (the one he can't have). And he says "no". He always says "no". But being Lorey, I still don't trust that "no". Because in my mind I'm waiting for "us" to fall apart.
I look back at all the couples who were with us when we became a couple. Some of them have gone their separate ways. And I always wonder when will be our time's up.
I just need to wait for three more years. Maybe I can only be sure of me and Lawrence when the I'm up at the altar saying "I do" while he says "I do too".
I guess this is because 2008 is ending. Well, the dreaded year finally ends. I wish it wouldn't pass on its bad luck to 2009. With all the fights, drama and breakdowns I had to deal with, I don't think I can take anymore next year.
Oddly, Law and I are still together. Even when things were falling apart in other parts of my life, my lovelife is still intact. Yes, it's a shaky lovelife with its ups and downs. But he's still here.
I asked him if he would ever trade me for his first love (the one he can't have). And he says "no". He always says "no". But being Lorey, I still don't trust that "no". Because in my mind I'm waiting for "us" to fall apart.
I look back at all the couples who were with us when we became a couple. Some of them have gone their separate ways. And I always wonder when will be our time's up.
I just need to wait for three more years. Maybe I can only be sure of me and Lawrence when the I'm up at the altar saying "I do" while he says "I do too".