Holidays & Stuff
So Damon and I have booked ourselves a holiday! Wahoooooo!!!! We'll be off in early July, going to Hong Kong for 4 nights, then Koh Samui for 7 nights and a night in transit in Singapore :)
I intend to spend this holiday eating myself stupid! At this stage I am not even that interested in the shopping, though I am sure that will change when I am faced with endless market stalls selling an abundance of crap. :) However, Koh Samui will be all about stuffing my face! :D
Apart from eating myself stupid I have made out quite a list of things to do that don't involve eating or shopping! If there are any must do's for either country please let me know so I can add them to my list :D I am so excited it's outta control!
As a result of the holiday plans I am having to budget strongly between Damon and myself. I'm working out a week by week budget with my own money which incorporates Damon for the bills. I'm also working out meal plans! For the first time ever I am getting *serious*! This holiday is costing us a small fortune and we passionately hate having debt on the credit card so try to use it as little as possible and pay anything off as soon as we can. Apart from Damons brazil holiday, and the upcoming holiday we simply don't use it.
So.. I figure a ton of people don't read this, and really, I don't blame them. I rarely have anything of interest to say, and I rarely update :) So going on that, I actually have something real to say.. perhaps burying it this far in the post will mean less will read it! wahoo!! Lately I've been pretty much a mess inside. I've come home twice to something like dirty dishes, or just general untidyness in the house and to be frank, I just can't cope with it. I've ended up a sobbing mess whilst I clean up. I'm a bit depressed really, there are a lot of areas in my life that need improvement, and they aren't always from my end. I don't think I need meds or anything, I know what the problems are and I have things in place to rectify them. Work is generally fine and I still love it. The gossip and bitchiness that can occur gets to me at times, but then I have a few days away and it's all good. Generally the shift I am on is pretty good and I am no stranger to joining in on some of the things I hate. In the environment I work in, it's impossible not to. My general anti socialism is really starting to shit me, and the consequences of many years of it is starting to take it's toll. I go through my phone sometimes when I am bored and feel like ringing someone for a chat and there are very few to call. That's entirely my own fault and I don't blame anyone for giving up. Damon is even more anti social than me, but that is no excuse. Neither is us both being shift workers, though it does make it difficult to do things together, tho certainly not impossible. Missing a wedding last year is still weighing heavily on my mind, guilt that the friendship is probably over and that is mostly my fault. Rectifying it isn't really an option so I just have to make sure I don't let something like that happen again.
So generally, things aren't always as rosy as I love to make them out to be. They are usually always good, but I cut out the crappy bits. I just don't talk about them much or to many people. I'm always working on solutions and things don't usually get me down as much as they have lately. However, I have put plans in motion, talked to Damon about the problems I am having and ways in which he needs to help me and us. Being down and feeling a bit depressed doesn't mean I have lost my positivity! So now it's just putting in the effort. :) I'm glad that we have the common goal of saving for this holiday, it will do us good in ways other than we think :)
I intend to spend this holiday eating myself stupid! At this stage I am not even that interested in the shopping, though I am sure that will change when I am faced with endless market stalls selling an abundance of crap. :) However, Koh Samui will be all about stuffing my face! :D
Apart from eating myself stupid I have made out quite a list of things to do that don't involve eating or shopping! If there are any must do's for either country please let me know so I can add them to my list :D I am so excited it's outta control!
As a result of the holiday plans I am having to budget strongly between Damon and myself. I'm working out a week by week budget with my own money which incorporates Damon for the bills. I'm also working out meal plans! For the first time ever I am getting *serious*! This holiday is costing us a small fortune and we passionately hate having debt on the credit card so try to use it as little as possible and pay anything off as soon as we can. Apart from Damons brazil holiday, and the upcoming holiday we simply don't use it.
So.. I figure a ton of people don't read this, and really, I don't blame them. I rarely have anything of interest to say, and I rarely update :) So going on that, I actually have something real to say.. perhaps burying it this far in the post will mean less will read it! wahoo!! Lately I've been pretty much a mess inside. I've come home twice to something like dirty dishes, or just general untidyness in the house and to be frank, I just can't cope with it. I've ended up a sobbing mess whilst I clean up. I'm a bit depressed really, there are a lot of areas in my life that need improvement, and they aren't always from my end. I don't think I need meds or anything, I know what the problems are and I have things in place to rectify them. Work is generally fine and I still love it. The gossip and bitchiness that can occur gets to me at times, but then I have a few days away and it's all good. Generally the shift I am on is pretty good and I am no stranger to joining in on some of the things I hate. In the environment I work in, it's impossible not to. My general anti socialism is really starting to shit me, and the consequences of many years of it is starting to take it's toll. I go through my phone sometimes when I am bored and feel like ringing someone for a chat and there are very few to call. That's entirely my own fault and I don't blame anyone for giving up. Damon is even more anti social than me, but that is no excuse. Neither is us both being shift workers, though it does make it difficult to do things together, tho certainly not impossible. Missing a wedding last year is still weighing heavily on my mind, guilt that the friendship is probably over and that is mostly my fault. Rectifying it isn't really an option so I just have to make sure I don't let something like that happen again.
So generally, things aren't always as rosy as I love to make them out to be. They are usually always good, but I cut out the crappy bits. I just don't talk about them much or to many people. I'm always working on solutions and things don't usually get me down as much as they have lately. However, I have put plans in motion, talked to Damon about the problems I am having and ways in which he needs to help me and us. Being down and feeling a bit depressed doesn't mean I have lost my positivity! So now it's just putting in the effort. :) I'm glad that we have the common goal of saving for this holiday, it will do us good in ways other than we think :)