2011

[lordymechris]

 I made it to 2011. I just can't believe that I'm going to be 21 this year, it's all becoming so real to me right now. I'm growing up and it's coming faster then I'll ever know. I don't feel 20, I still feel 18 or 19 and it's gonna take a while for me to catch up. 2010 was rough for me, I feel like there was a lot of loss but at the same time I feel like there were some personal gains. I feel like I was a good friend to everyone and, I feel like I was caring and supportive to whoever needed it. I know I didn't try to knock anyone who was already down. It's weird because today I hung out with Riana and it made me realize, wow I really only hang out with 2 people from high school on a regular type of basis (kaitlyn & rachel) and I'll see Riana every time she comes back home but that's it really. It's sad that I've lost friends, but I feel like there totally needs to be efforts made on both sides or it just isn't worth it. I seriously spent too much time and gas on trying to see others who never spent that time or gas on me. I'm glad I work for Aldo, because my boss may be an ass sometimes but the co-workers treat each other like family and we go out and do things together. We make time for one another and I don't think that happens a lot at other jobs.

One of my other realizations is, soon people who I went to high school with will be done with college. Where will they go? Most of them will be right back in the burgh with no one to go with their degrees because of the economy. So I can't wait to see what happens with that for some of them. I doubt things will change though.

ugh, i'm tired and idk why i'm writing this lol. i hope i don't come back and regret this