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so many things have changed since about...june 15st?
and then even more things changed around august 1st.
and even worse like august 20th.
and now...everything is completely different.
all the plans i had at the beginning of summer for my future? gone.
but, not necessarily changed for the worst.
just different.
i hate being so indecisive.
i hate being thrown under the bus.
i hate being the scapegoat.
i hate being ready to grow up, and taking the steps to get there, and then backtracking realllll far.
but i think it'll all be for the better anyways.
just nervous, but i think i'm ready to improvise.
back at vans; back at p6.
gotta have some sort of steady ground, and i already know the ropes.
what an adventure this year or so has been.
and then even more things changed around august 1st.
and even worse like august 20th.
and now...everything is completely different.
all the plans i had at the beginning of summer for my future? gone.
but, not necessarily changed for the worst.
just different.
i hate being so indecisive.
i hate being thrown under the bus.
i hate being the scapegoat.
i hate being ready to grow up, and taking the steps to get there, and then backtracking realllll far.
but i think it'll all be for the better anyways.
just nervous, but i think i'm ready to improvise.
back at vans; back at p6.
gotta have some sort of steady ground, and i already know the ropes.
what an adventure this year or so has been.