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So, it's been awhile since my last update...
I'm waiting for Morna to get home from Quebec still. She's home Friday night, after 5 weeks. My last update I was attempting to date her, which I succeeded in. I'm seeing her, now. Surprise! Well, not really. If I really want a relationship with someone, I usually end up dating them.
My Dad's been gone the last week, to Hornby (or is it Hornbie?) Island, camping with Carol. He's back Wednesday or Thursday. Been really bored and lonely lately. I've been satisfying my loneliness by playing a shitload of guitar, and occasionally have Ped, Shawn, and Adam over to jam with them. Things are going alright. Charlie misses us (Adam & myself), and wants to have practices with me and Adam again --- oddly enough, we aren't a band anymore, so what use is practicing? But oh well -shrugs- we can get better. Me and Adam are covering The Haunted's "Hollow Ground" at the moment. Me and Shawn are covering Amorphis' "Black Winter Day," and I'm not really covering anything with Ped right now, though we should settle on something, I think.
What else? Oh, well, I've decided that I'm longer going to smoke pot. Lately I've cut back on cigarettes, but I'm still smoking alot. I was (at one point) smoking 1.5 a day. Then I ran out of money. I'm not drinking so much anymore, haven't partied in a while (being about a week now, new record!), and I have some goals I'd like to follow up on, but those are too personal to share.
I miss Morna, but only 5-ish days.
I NEED A FUCKING DRUMMER!
I've been avoiding people lately. I don't know why. I feel depressed. Other than Glenn, Ped, Adam, Dirk, Kevin, and Cody, I haven't seen any of my other friend's in the last couple weeks, on a normal basis. I saw Adam, and Shawn, Dylan, and Kerri, but they were all shit-faced when I got to the party, so it doesn't count unless you get fucked up with them.
Yeah, yeah, I said I was going sXe. I did for about 2 months, with an exception to the smoking of cigarettes. I'm happy I even managed that. Maybe next time I try it will be longer, or permanent. The way I looked at it, was that I was testing a new lifestyle, and I seriously didn't think it was that bad.
I didn't graduate this year.
Unfortunately.
I did some course changing earlier this year, and that fucked me over, in addition to never passing Math. So I'm back to school next year -- CG, I hope. It holds alot of meaning for me. If not, then I'm forced to go to Lucas Centre. Ugh, I hate the thought, but they offer the Fast Track program, which is school in the morning, until you have the credits you need to graduate, and you're off school by noon everyday, then you have the afternoon and evenings to work and support yourself, since I am, in fact, being kicked out of my house by my Dad, because he's a tool. Whatever, I'm moving in with a friend. If that doesn't work out, then I'll find somewhere to live temporarily, and work things out there... I have an idea of what I will do, though.
I don't think I've mentioned Nolan, have I? -drools- He's my secret, though, so I'll just mention the name.
I went to visit Tiffany for Canada Day. Yaaaaay. Or not really. I love her to death, but not enough to bore myself. I feel bad for her... but whatever... I'm going back over there for labour day long weekend. Marc offered to pay for me to get over there, and back, plus food expenses and whatnot. She was like, "of course, I need to be paid back. Sexual favours or Coke are alright. Preferably Coke." I laughed and told her I could do either --- she was like "REALLY?!" A little too enthusiastic, I say, haha.
Amazing though, for the first time in like 2 years, she's single. Wow, there's opportunity. I've been waiting for that forever, but I'm seeing Morna. Oh well.
On that note -- Why the fuck am I awake this early?
The fireworks just finished last night, I went to a couple of them this year. I saw them all last year, but with my current mood, I'm not happy enough to truly enjoy them. Nick, Jordan, and Chantal came out from Montreal to visit KD and all the rest of us, well that was fun. Chantal and Jordan were in a bad mood from the long flight, and Nick was hyper, otherwise, they weren't all KD talked them up to being. Chantal is kind of freaking me out --- she keeps hinting at things that suggest she wants to sleep with me. Although I don't really know if she's like that to all guys, so... -shrug-
It's Sunday, so only like 4 days until my Dad is home. Yay. I wont be that bored.
Honestly, I have two books I would love to read and haven't started on yet, but when people are around, all I do is read. Now that nobody is here, I'm bored, but wont read. What the hell is wrong with me?
Therapy sucks.
I think I know why I'm so depressed; I'm an attention whore, but my girlfriend isn't here, my Dad and Carol are gone, and my friend's are always working when I'm not. I'm getting no attention.
As you can see, I do a better job of analysing myself than the shrink does. Because at least I'm suggesting what's wrong. That bitch doesn't do anything to help me.
Odd, I had a dream I remember for the first time since I was a kid (with the exception of one or two). I usually never remember them. I think what stands out most about it, is the fact that it was a dream that was about, or had Crystal in it. I don't remember all of it, because it was a long dream, so the context of what it was about is blurred. All I know is that she was in the end of it, maybe the whole thing, and she was wearing that pin-striped dress shirt she has that I like, which I said I liked in the dream. That's about all I know for sure.
Other than that, nothing else new.
I'm waiting for Morna to get home from Quebec still. She's home Friday night, after 5 weeks. My last update I was attempting to date her, which I succeeded in. I'm seeing her, now. Surprise! Well, not really. If I really want a relationship with someone, I usually end up dating them.
My Dad's been gone the last week, to Hornby (or is it Hornbie?) Island, camping with Carol. He's back Wednesday or Thursday. Been really bored and lonely lately. I've been satisfying my loneliness by playing a shitload of guitar, and occasionally have Ped, Shawn, and Adam over to jam with them. Things are going alright. Charlie misses us (Adam & myself), and wants to have practices with me and Adam again --- oddly enough, we aren't a band anymore, so what use is practicing? But oh well -shrugs- we can get better. Me and Adam are covering The Haunted's "Hollow Ground" at the moment. Me and Shawn are covering Amorphis' "Black Winter Day," and I'm not really covering anything with Ped right now, though we should settle on something, I think.
What else? Oh, well, I've decided that I'm longer going to smoke pot. Lately I've cut back on cigarettes, but I'm still smoking alot. I was (at one point) smoking 1.5 a day. Then I ran out of money. I'm not drinking so much anymore, haven't partied in a while (being about a week now, new record!), and I have some goals I'd like to follow up on, but those are too personal to share.
I miss Morna, but only 5-ish days.
I NEED A FUCKING DRUMMER!
I've been avoiding people lately. I don't know why. I feel depressed. Other than Glenn, Ped, Adam, Dirk, Kevin, and Cody, I haven't seen any of my other friend's in the last couple weeks, on a normal basis. I saw Adam, and Shawn, Dylan, and Kerri, but they were all shit-faced when I got to the party, so it doesn't count unless you get fucked up with them.
Yeah, yeah, I said I was going sXe. I did for about 2 months, with an exception to the smoking of cigarettes. I'm happy I even managed that. Maybe next time I try it will be longer, or permanent. The way I looked at it, was that I was testing a new lifestyle, and I seriously didn't think it was that bad.
I didn't graduate this year.
Unfortunately.
I did some course changing earlier this year, and that fucked me over, in addition to never passing Math. So I'm back to school next year -- CG, I hope. It holds alot of meaning for me. If not, then I'm forced to go to Lucas Centre. Ugh, I hate the thought, but they offer the Fast Track program, which is school in the morning, until you have the credits you need to graduate, and you're off school by noon everyday, then you have the afternoon and evenings to work and support yourself, since I am, in fact, being kicked out of my house by my Dad, because he's a tool. Whatever, I'm moving in with a friend. If that doesn't work out, then I'll find somewhere to live temporarily, and work things out there... I have an idea of what I will do, though.
I don't think I've mentioned Nolan, have I? -drools- He's my secret, though, so I'll just mention the name.
I went to visit Tiffany for Canada Day. Yaaaaay. Or not really. I love her to death, but not enough to bore myself. I feel bad for her... but whatever... I'm going back over there for labour day long weekend. Marc offered to pay for me to get over there, and back, plus food expenses and whatnot. She was like, "of course, I need to be paid back. Sexual favours or Coke are alright. Preferably Coke." I laughed and told her I could do either --- she was like "REALLY?!" A little too enthusiastic, I say, haha.
Amazing though, for the first time in like 2 years, she's single. Wow, there's opportunity. I've been waiting for that forever, but I'm seeing Morna. Oh well.
On that note -- Why the fuck am I awake this early?
The fireworks just finished last night, I went to a couple of them this year. I saw them all last year, but with my current mood, I'm not happy enough to truly enjoy them. Nick, Jordan, and Chantal came out from Montreal to visit KD and all the rest of us, well that was fun. Chantal and Jordan were in a bad mood from the long flight, and Nick was hyper, otherwise, they weren't all KD talked them up to being. Chantal is kind of freaking me out --- she keeps hinting at things that suggest she wants to sleep with me. Although I don't really know if she's like that to all guys, so... -shrug-
It's Sunday, so only like 4 days until my Dad is home. Yay. I wont be that bored.
Honestly, I have two books I would love to read and haven't started on yet, but when people are around, all I do is read. Now that nobody is here, I'm bored, but wont read. What the hell is wrong with me?
Therapy sucks.
I think I know why I'm so depressed; I'm an attention whore, but my girlfriend isn't here, my Dad and Carol are gone, and my friend's are always working when I'm not. I'm getting no attention.
As you can see, I do a better job of analysing myself than the shrink does. Because at least I'm suggesting what's wrong. That bitch doesn't do anything to help me.
Odd, I had a dream I remember for the first time since I was a kid (with the exception of one or two). I usually never remember them. I think what stands out most about it, is the fact that it was a dream that was about, or had Crystal in it. I don't remember all of it, because it was a long dream, so the context of what it was about is blurred. All I know is that she was in the end of it, maybe the whole thing, and she was wearing that pin-striped dress shirt she has that I like, which I said I liked in the dream. That's about all I know for sure.
Other than that, nothing else new.