The agony.
I can't breathe. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I'm in that horrible state, where you can't get a girl out of your mind.
Christy. *sigh*
It all started monday. I was having a lame time at bumbershoot, I went with lame people... so I ended up drinking too much beer and eating gonja rolls. I went only to see Tegan and Sara and was finally getting excited to see them. My lame friends decided to sit on the lawn and rest... I had to get closer, so I milled around to the left, then the right, then finally settled close to the middle where I noticed some drunk girls having fun, and I decided why the hell not. I introduced myself to the girls and the girl on the other side of me, who I didn't notice at first. The drunk girls fell all over me, and were dancing... I was having fun making fun of them. Then they left. The girl next to me says "They ditched us." To which I replied "We're finally alone." She laughed and I looked over to finally notice this beautiful girl staring back at me. I must have had a stupid look on my face because she just laughed harder.
We talked about Tegan and Sara and how I had a huge crush on them, and we talked about Brandi Carlile and how I had a huge crush on her too. Then Tegan and Sara started. I started swaying with the music, and I brushed my hand by her side a few times. I didn't mean to, but then I figured it could be an experiment. She caught my hand with her fingers, and that was it. My hands found there way to her neck, and jawline, her ears and then down her hair. I realized what I was doing and bent down to whisper "I hope I'm not being to forward." She said "I would have stopped you already." So I kissed her cheek. she put her arms around me and I held her. The song was over and we let go to clap. I looked over to her and just grabbed her face and kissed her. My heart exploded. FUCKING AMAZING KISSER. Another song started and I let her go. She held onto my side I rubbed her back, kissing her all over her face and neck. Then she started kissing my neck, and she nibbled my collarbone. My knees went weak.
She is quite shorter than me. Had to be at most 5'2" she had an amazing body. perfect lips and blue eyes.
Finally the concert was over, her friends called and she had to meet them on the other side of the space needle. I told her I would walk her there. I find out.
She's 24. An certified EMT but works at starbucks because she's back in school. Originally from Vegas. Lived in seattle for a year. On our way there I stopped her a few times to kiss her. We get there and I don't have a coin to get into Ziggy Pop. So we say fuck it and walk around. My asshole friends call they want to go, so we stop at a park bench to exchange phone numbers. At the bench we kiss the last time. She bites my lip, and I realize I have to go right then or I will never go. I get up and walk away.
The next day, after a night of no sleep. I call her, we talk for hours and decide to meet wednesday to play with her dog at a park.
We meet there. And now, in the daylight, and being very sober, she's even more amazing than I first thought. We play in the water with her dog, held hands I picked her up to throw her in, but didn't. We finally decide on getting some food, then after that we go to watch movies at her house. We watch a movie slowly getting comfertable cuddling, I rub her back, kiss her back, hold her. She falls asleep. After the movie is over we just sit and don't talk. My heart is beating out of my chest. And finally I say, "I couldn't stop thinking about you." And she said she couldn't stop thinking about me either. And then we talk about the past. She broke up with her girlfriend a little more than a month ago and they had been dating for 2 years. Heart drops. Here we go. She talks about how much she likes me, and how she wants me but how she doesn't want me to be a rebound. She needs to figure a lot of things out. she needs to get completly over her girlfriend. And I just sit there listening. I say okay and get up to go, but she pulls me down and holds me telling me she is so sorry and wants to still talk and I just get up again, and tell her I have to go. She walks me to my car. We hug for what seems like forever, she lets out a big sigh, that makes me believe everything she says. I kiss her on the neck, and forehead and I drive away. We call eachother a couple times that night, talk for hours, I ask her to meet me places, she declines. Finally it hurts too bad and I say goodbye. The next morning I leave roses and a bone for her dog on her car. I leave a note that says
I understand you need space to figure things out. So I'll let you alone, in hopes maybe when you do figure it out you will call me. -Katie
I delete her number from my phone, so if she wants to talk it's on her terms because I can't help but call her. And since then no reply. I've been holding my phone, I can't stop thinking about her, and what's worse is I can't sleep or eat.
jesus h. christ. What is it about her that makes me feel this way. I haven't felt this way since Bridget and I first got together, and now I'm a love sick puppy. What a pathetic mess I am. I just can't get her out of my mind. I didn't even know her 5 days ago, and now... God. Hopefully this goes away fast. And in the mean time I'm going to the war room tonight for cherry. That will keep my mind of things. However I know I am going to drink too much, and now I can't just drive to the U dist. I'll have to pass out in my car I suppose. Ah. I have the worst luck with women.
Christy. *sigh*
It all started monday. I was having a lame time at bumbershoot, I went with lame people... so I ended up drinking too much beer and eating gonja rolls. I went only to see Tegan and Sara and was finally getting excited to see them. My lame friends decided to sit on the lawn and rest... I had to get closer, so I milled around to the left, then the right, then finally settled close to the middle where I noticed some drunk girls having fun, and I decided why the hell not. I introduced myself to the girls and the girl on the other side of me, who I didn't notice at first. The drunk girls fell all over me, and were dancing... I was having fun making fun of them. Then they left. The girl next to me says "They ditched us." To which I replied "We're finally alone." She laughed and I looked over to finally notice this beautiful girl staring back at me. I must have had a stupid look on my face because she just laughed harder.
We talked about Tegan and Sara and how I had a huge crush on them, and we talked about Brandi Carlile and how I had a huge crush on her too. Then Tegan and Sara started. I started swaying with the music, and I brushed my hand by her side a few times. I didn't mean to, but then I figured it could be an experiment. She caught my hand with her fingers, and that was it. My hands found there way to her neck, and jawline, her ears and then down her hair. I realized what I was doing and bent down to whisper "I hope I'm not being to forward." She said "I would have stopped you already." So I kissed her cheek. she put her arms around me and I held her. The song was over and we let go to clap. I looked over to her and just grabbed her face and kissed her. My heart exploded. FUCKING AMAZING KISSER. Another song started and I let her go. She held onto my side I rubbed her back, kissing her all over her face and neck. Then she started kissing my neck, and she nibbled my collarbone. My knees went weak.
She is quite shorter than me. Had to be at most 5'2" she had an amazing body. perfect lips and blue eyes.
Finally the concert was over, her friends called and she had to meet them on the other side of the space needle. I told her I would walk her there. I find out.
She's 24. An certified EMT but works at starbucks because she's back in school. Originally from Vegas. Lived in seattle for a year. On our way there I stopped her a few times to kiss her. We get there and I don't have a coin to get into Ziggy Pop. So we say fuck it and walk around. My asshole friends call they want to go, so we stop at a park bench to exchange phone numbers. At the bench we kiss the last time. She bites my lip, and I realize I have to go right then or I will never go. I get up and walk away.
The next day, after a night of no sleep. I call her, we talk for hours and decide to meet wednesday to play with her dog at a park.
We meet there. And now, in the daylight, and being very sober, she's even more amazing than I first thought. We play in the water with her dog, held hands I picked her up to throw her in, but didn't. We finally decide on getting some food, then after that we go to watch movies at her house. We watch a movie slowly getting comfertable cuddling, I rub her back, kiss her back, hold her. She falls asleep. After the movie is over we just sit and don't talk. My heart is beating out of my chest. And finally I say, "I couldn't stop thinking about you." And she said she couldn't stop thinking about me either. And then we talk about the past. She broke up with her girlfriend a little more than a month ago and they had been dating for 2 years. Heart drops. Here we go. She talks about how much she likes me, and how she wants me but how she doesn't want me to be a rebound. She needs to figure a lot of things out. she needs to get completly over her girlfriend. And I just sit there listening. I say okay and get up to go, but she pulls me down and holds me telling me she is so sorry and wants to still talk and I just get up again, and tell her I have to go. She walks me to my car. We hug for what seems like forever, she lets out a big sigh, that makes me believe everything she says. I kiss her on the neck, and forehead and I drive away. We call eachother a couple times that night, talk for hours, I ask her to meet me places, she declines. Finally it hurts too bad and I say goodbye. The next morning I leave roses and a bone for her dog on her car. I leave a note that says
I understand you need space to figure things out. So I'll let you alone, in hopes maybe when you do figure it out you will call me. -Katie
I delete her number from my phone, so if she wants to talk it's on her terms because I can't help but call her. And since then no reply. I've been holding my phone, I can't stop thinking about her, and what's worse is I can't sleep or eat.
jesus h. christ. What is it about her that makes me feel this way. I haven't felt this way since Bridget and I first got together, and now I'm a love sick puppy. What a pathetic mess I am. I just can't get her out of my mind. I didn't even know her 5 days ago, and now... God. Hopefully this goes away fast. And in the mean time I'm going to the war room tonight for cherry. That will keep my mind of things. However I know I am going to drink too much, and now I can't just drive to the U dist. I'll have to pass out in my car I suppose. Ah. I have the worst luck with women.