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It has been a while since my last update. Berklee has been going to hell. I'm not sure which classes I have a hope of passing. Pennsic seems like more and more of an option as my odds of not bombing out this semester slip away. Fire spinning is going well, but to think of it as the sum total of my identity is rather pathetic in the extreme. I'm going to class less and less often, opting instead to huddle on the couch in my living room. Music is leaving my conscousness, which is unacceptable. But I don't know how to fix it. I haven't practiced guitar in weeks, and the final is in 2 weeks on a quantity of material equivalent to about a year's worth of study. I'm failing all of the classes in which I actually play music. I think registration for next semester is this week, but I can't tell for sure.
Fire spinning is not my "real life", yet I am turning to it more and more as the things I used to use for my sense of self slip away. The moodswings are becoming more and more frequent. Ever since Oberlin went to hell I've had trouble dealing with imporatant things. I need time to think, to get back on my feet, and that's the one thing I don't have.
Fire spinning is not my "real life", yet I am turning to it more and more as the things I used to use for my sense of self slip away. The moodswings are becoming more and more frequent. Ever since Oberlin went to hell I've had trouble dealing with imporatant things. I need time to think, to get back on my feet, and that's the one thing I don't have.