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So i'm down in the dungeon trying for the third day in a row to finish my final project for Sound Design that was due on thursday. I'ts kinda funny tho - it's an interview with "Ahnold" under the premise that he has gone completely insane and has started thinking he is Conan the barbarian. I'm doing it with quotes from the first Conan movie, and has fun lines. When asked why he supports Bush's war plan, "Conan" repleies, "He is strong. He will cast me out of Valhalla and laugh at me!" That kind of thing. I just need to get it done. Again. Grrr.
Econ final is on Monday. Physics on Wednesday. None of that is good news. I need more time to study for both.
I also discovered that Oberlin won't take online credit (despite the dean of students' earlier assurances that they would), so I'm stuck in DC over winter term going to Univ. of Maryland. This sucks, because I really needed that month in Colorado to get my head back together.
My thoughts are being drowned out by the chug chug chug of the gristmill and foundary of academia. It's getting hard to think, and harder to dream. More and more time is being wasted just trying to focus. I'm taking ritalin and washing it down with Red Bull. It's how I don't fall asleep. I need to relax, get off the stimulants, find my baseline again. But Oberlin won't let me. That's the worst part - it's fight and struggle with no real end in sight, or lose everything and give up. And I don't want to give up, but it's getting harder and harder to keep going. If I make it through finals, I am rewarded with taking intensive classes over winter term. If I pass my classes over winter term, I am rewarded with taking 16 credits in the spring. If I pass my courses in the spring, I can go to Berklee over the summer. And in the fall, Berklee begins full time, year round, for the next 2 years.
And it would be fine and dandy, but I am tired. So. Damned. Tired.
Econ final is on Monday. Physics on Wednesday. None of that is good news. I need more time to study for both.
I also discovered that Oberlin won't take online credit (despite the dean of students' earlier assurances that they would), so I'm stuck in DC over winter term going to Univ. of Maryland. This sucks, because I really needed that month in Colorado to get my head back together.
My thoughts are being drowned out by the chug chug chug of the gristmill and foundary of academia. It's getting hard to think, and harder to dream. More and more time is being wasted just trying to focus. I'm taking ritalin and washing it down with Red Bull. It's how I don't fall asleep. I need to relax, get off the stimulants, find my baseline again. But Oberlin won't let me. That's the worst part - it's fight and struggle with no real end in sight, or lose everything and give up. And I don't want to give up, but it's getting harder and harder to keep going. If I make it through finals, I am rewarded with taking intensive classes over winter term. If I pass my classes over winter term, I am rewarded with taking 16 credits in the spring. If I pass my courses in the spring, I can go to Berklee over the summer. And in the fall, Berklee begins full time, year round, for the next 2 years.
And it would be fine and dandy, but I am tired. So. Damned. Tired.