Scum of the Earth
I realized sitting on the bus going down sixth avenue the other day.....that I am growing sour. I sat there on that bus sitting with the other scum of the earth. I took a seat in the back when I got on when the bus left the transit center, and halfway to downtown...it fills with all the homeless and the loonies and the crack junkies. They just fill up. Smelling like shit, blood, and drugs, and a few other smells I didn't care to place. A rather round woman sat next to me and started to rub and slap my leg trying to get my attention over my iPod. She asked if I had a dollar for some warm food. Now I almost started to go for my wallet when she back up that sentence with, "and maybe a condom." I cringed and cranked my tunes. At this point she is still tapping and slapping my thigh. I see out of the corner of my eye she was still talking. I calmly removed my headphones and closed my eyes as I turned toward her, cringing from the smell. I opened my eyes and mouth slowly and at the same time. "Kindly....fuck off." She pulled that stop cord so fast and got off the bus.
I thought I was safe....no. I notice a fucking tweeker in a ponch in the front of the bus...staring me dead in the eye.
I saw nothing but malice and desperation in his eyes. And he very violently twitched constantly......nothing happened....I just got off at my stop.
I am fly paper for freaks.
But in other news. Work at the mall is fine. Just busy due to the holiday season. Work at the bar is...well, different. But all in all, a blast. I have over 100 stories to tell a night. But dealing with the bar patrons...the other scum of the universe, i grow cold to the problems of the world. I'm now tired of peoples eyes at me at work and public. With their eyes they say, "Look at his tattoos, piercings...look how he dresses..." and coountless other freakish stares I get. They have NO FUCKING ROOM TO TALK. I am the fucker that cleans up after you, stops your fights, serves your drinks that lead to me holding your hair back as you puke. I am the fucker that calls you a cab for you before you go home with some random stranger that might rape and kill you. I watch you cheat on your husbands/wifes, and yes I see your ring...funny how the girl/guy your tongue is down their throat, isn't wearing a ring while your friends cheer you on behind your back, only to stab that same back when the story slips out one night in front of your significant...or insignificant other.
People are slowly pissing me off.
My life is rather rocky right now with Em leaving and whatnot.
That's not the only cause...but it's on the top five. It just sucks that we are in such a money driven society that everything is an arm and a leg and they still want more. I am slowly crawling out of the debt leftover from the divorce. But not enough to do what I want. Which is pick up and move with her, find a job, and just get out of the town of my birth and go somewhere else for awhile. I have grown to hate it here. I want to be somewhere else, a break from this. If I go out there I am not gonna find a job or jobs I need fast enough. That fucking sucks.
I am gonna miss our snuggle session sundays and other coinsiding days off. Shit I'm gonna miss everything.
You know they say you'll miss the little shit once distance becomes a factor. Well, I know I'm gonna miss your half asleep comments when I crawl into bed after work on the weekends. I'm gonna miss your little squeels you make, and how you open your mouth to expose all your teeth and close your eyes really tight when you do it. All our inside jokes.
Just everything
I just am starting to grow and fucking hate our society. Don't worry too much about me. I am not about to do anything truely stupid. I am smarter and have a little more willpower, courage, and I still strive to make it in this world, then that. But I just had to bitch and rant.
Three Things
1.Never leave for good
2.I need to get out of the black hole that is Tacoma
3.Goodnight