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what can i say. hmmm. i feel like ive never really gone out/liked anyone before. im completely over everyone, drama, gayness, idk i guess i could say i have no feelings lately or something. my emotions are always vacant and id rather be alone then pretend to like someone. god damn it i waaant to like someone though. its almost sad because knowing i can never go back to dover high school just makes me wish so so much that i COULD go back and do it again. i loved it, even though there were plenty of times that i HATED it. mostly ill miss being young, knowing i had a while of my parents taking care of me and cooking my dinner, doing my laundry, and giving me money. i cant believe im being pushed out now. im considering being a super senior. haaa. soccer, friends, ski team (lol yah), betty b, dolorus mcvain the skirt nazi bahah, our stupid cafeteria that had those delicious cookies however shortlived they were and DISGUSTING buttery bagels, looking down at the mez, skipping art class with marissa as much as i dont talk to her now, becoming friends with people i love now and didnt know before, deerfield fair fieldtrip fresh year and the IYQ girls doing kareoke to Barbie Girl, mr. richards aka bowser lord knows you hated me, mrs. mckowen and your stupid riddles that i loved-thank you for thinking my writing was so great-mrs allen did too but i think she did acid on accounta she said she did it as a child and carried that coke bottle around with her that quite often gave her shudders when she took a nice little swig from it, mr. daileys monotonous voice-i thought i would never get to leave you behind now im sorta sorry i didnt listen more and talk more about spongebob witt chuu, sorry for sneaking out of your class to go see chris cav at his locker haha i would take that back if i could mister believe me i guess you had the right to slam that door in my face, senior fischer the cracklord and founder of surf team-the songs push it and Africa always being played in your class-watching napoleon dynomite-DIGA ME LA VERDAD!, getting to sleep in class and watch lion king-WE WILL NEVER GET TO DO THAT IN COLLEGEE :( , spirit week being mario and luigi and countless other great costumes SENIOR PURPLE ROYALTY!!, mrs. overby for letting me be in NHS, bosko bill and tenacious ted always made me feel better thanks abbs and dont even tell anyone our secret recipee to that pizza!, shmeg you can always make me laugh i absolutely loved boating with you your fam and BILL hahaha, soss ive never been friends with anyone for SO long--FIRST GRADE AAHHH!, i can tell you guys anything and everything, hill-even tho we;re not friends anymore you got me past alot of shit and i need to say thank you for that. there are so many people and so many times, mrs freear i love your little britt accent, thank you tim rummo for slamming your face into that chocolate mousse cake that last day of senior year im going ot miss you but ill come back to visit you and furthang:(, robby russel i cant believe youre going to college in fucking scottland. youre crazy brotha. john hessafort youre fat and i love you lol my bling homie who loves happies, pat whom devoures the galaxy as captain planet and has epic battles with me in bellamy fields where we make up moves like "the hurricane" and has red hair, eric the red who also has red hair and very colorful shoes and pretends hes ronald weasley or patrick swazey-whichever he feels at that day, tony the asian, jojo my surfing friend who skinny dipped with me when we were wasted haha and goes on crazy adventures with me to coureys and gets burns on her stomach from jumping off high ledges-nice one, kenny and miles my friends whose names i will see in the credits of great movies someday and i think they may be gay for eachother ooor miles may be gay for kenny on accounta we found water cucumbers under his bed at his party and he kissed spencer when he was drunk once plus he likes to watch men pee and shower-in bryans case-poop., justin lewis that kid that laughs at everything that jumped from the top of the stairs and caught his foot on the railing and almosst splattered!, rod the funniest boy alive who was a japanese rice picker for career day and was always doing the craziest thing like running for president every year as a joke and promising to take us to korea-north not south because theyre a little less crazy, brian keegan who DID run for president and started off by saying "i know you guys dont like me but-"..yah, nice speech bud. johnathon wilson who would dive for your pencil if you accidentally dropped it and claimed he found it and it was his-btw ryan raff im sorry i broke your pen and gave it to johnathon to fix RIP little guy, when me and amira were really good friends and went to concerts together when she was...slightly emo..now she thinks shes going to be rich and famous HOW i dont knoww, that time josh doyon said lets hang out-i agreed and then he said he liked me so i got sketched out and kenny pretended to kidnapp me and take me to kansas or something in senior lot, me and kenny went to blue man group and stole TP daha, jake ford who was my best little buddy at parties for the longest time-we hunted for that gingerbread man who killed cats on my dads street when we were wicked drunk and hide behind cars, ross who took me to prom junior year and was really funny but is not really into drugs-but hey our limo was sick thanks for the pretty purple flowers and we still have free dance lessons-p.s. your mom wants to "shred my skin off"-tell her shes a crazy veggie bitch from me thanks, josh flemming aka FlemDawg who was hilarious-first time i ever saw him was in that blow up lepricon costume freshman year at the pep rally, alex demers who i talked to alot going into soph yr that was kinda gangster but introduced me to jamie lassor and matt mcherron when we stood in the COOL AREA aka the field at the football games and when the cannons went off matt goes "oop my friend fiddys here" and then me and jamie played lots of patty cake, mr. frandzel who made his own chocolate and saw me at a haunted house once in ptown with my dad and did a cool little grasshopper kick-i passed economics/world cultures because of pat lynch God bless you son, soccer capture the flag followed by tailgating parties at teh football field, bus rides to away games and laddy laddy laddy the game that was impossibly perferted, also that other preverted game that you did shocker and other nasty motions to, my first time drinking EVER after bowling with courtney geroulou chris cav baarry hottie mcshane chelsea keaten nick pelleteire and marissa dobson and justin and crashing at courtneys with the girls-marissa falling in the closet when i told her knomes were there-me and court talkign about chasing polar bears down the street and pouring a thing of glitter into her beta fish tank to make him look prettier yadda yadda, going to danvers with a shitton of friends for ross and allies bday to play laser tag junior year and ross and jacob got wasted-so wasted that jacob actually slept in the car during the movie AND HE DIDNT MISS MUCH the american haunting suuckkedd balllss-jacob threw a can of beer at aprils forehead that night and called her a triffling bitch in the car hahaha that was after her and jake broke up and she still wanted to be with him, going to the beach in our limo after prom, oh god. ill add more after