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[lordember]

was good till tonite
belcher brought photos of the Electra Beach Party in
and she was in them,
in the white bathing suit I love,
and she was smiling, and
I was sudden;y hit by how much I am still in love with her
and want to be with her...
It hurts
real bad
thought about going the cut myself routine, but am
a.) too lazy...
b.) afraid (don't want to get comitted)
c.) don't want to die
d.) want to be around in case she wants to be with me again
i know I'm whining,
but I think I'm allowed...

can't wait till tomorrow,
gonna see bruce and a whole shitload of people
might make it
first paty without her...
sad

damn
-E