I don't know how to feel...

[lordabhortion]

Life is kind of in the middle right now. I'm still plagued with so much bad, but alot of things, like my friends and such, make me feel really good. I'm not sure what to think about certain things anymore...Things that I probably shouldn't even be worried about...Today I was really asking myself "Why must there be so much bad in life?" I just can't fathom why life has to feel the way it does sometimes...I can't stand it...I feel like some things will never change or get better...I wonder when it's going to finally build up into me going insane...I need love in my life...at this point I don't care which kind...I just miss it so much...I can't get past it! There are so few girls that are worth pursuing something with though...oh well...Maybe I should put out a personal ad...hahaha...

-Grandpa