Caught between a rock?

[lord_jay]

Choice....I have never been good at it. Now there are people out there that i know that have made really stupid choices as of late but it's there lives & more power to them if they think their choices are right

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[dark_goddess___]

Sometimes I wonder why you would beleive thigns you hear from someone about so and so's ex-boyfriend.. i wonder why people who dont know anything about someone's life would go and tell the guy they are interested in about their ex-boyfriend.. seems like they are up to know good.. and for you to beleive everyhting you hear from people who arent really involved in my life at all.. shows definite maturity. You know it's funny how I would always call you and tell you i wanted to hang out and you enver called me unless you were trying to find out something that soemoene told you about me... it truly showed me that you cared about me at all.. i mean i always stop in to see youa t work... why would i do that if i didnt want to see you or hang out wiht you? But you would never call me or anything so i thought you werent interested... so you see Jay.. if you had maybe called me once in a while.. you would know what goes on in my life and how i really feel about thigns.. but i forget that you only listen to mark and cara.. who clearly know what i think and do.. (sarcasm)you know.. in my head i didnt think you ever wanted to hang out wiht me or anything.. not even as jsut friends.. so why you would call and act like you care weather im with damien or not seemed really weird to me.. actually if you had asked me about you i would have told i relaly miss you.. those beautiful blue eyes and cute smile.. (thinks about your for a few) but really.. i forget that you 27 and dont act like it becuase you beleive assumptions other people make.. wow.. whateves.. guess i was stupid to have spent that great week with you....

[lord_jay]

Well i'd love to fight back with a "i've said like 2 whole sentences to cera lifetime" or "layin another one of those guilt trips on me huh" But i hate drama, & I always have. So what i'm gonna do is say, I'm glad you got it all out Liz, & i'll talk to you soon.

Ps. The god honest truth about me, is that i'm scared to death of relationships, the last girl i trusted with my love cheated on me, after a year & a half, with a friend of mine. So maybe you can see why i'm a little picky about the relationships i get into. I don't want a relationship right now. But thats not to say that i won't want one ok.