a middle distance runner

[lord_il_palazzo]

I always wondered why never wanted to get attached; why I never wanted to win anything. Now I know. I can't let go. I can't just forget. And maybe it's just me being hopeful, but I feel like this isn't the end. Complication is fine. Waiting is fine. If people easily forgot and moved on we would be nothing but savage beasts. I'm going to keep hoping and waiting despite the odds and maybe a little bit of luck will shine on me. Maybe we'll chose happiness. I don't think I've ever felt such a deja vu moment as I am right now. But part of me doesn't want to cry. Part me thinks everything will work out. There's no way of knowing, there never is. Those are just the facts of life. I don't want to take the cowards way out this time. I want to be selfish. I want to see a smile, hear laughter. I think it's there. I don't regret anything even if it does seem so unimportant. I still feel like there's something being held back. But if I should forget, if that's really what is wanted, then I hope that's all that's lost. I hope the friendship isn't on the line. I hope I can still feel the comfort of holding a hand. That's what I want. I don't think you can ever really say good bye.

Well I'm so sad tonight
And the words won't come out right
It's been a long day on the track
And its stamina that I lack

So won't you run to me tonight?
Tonight could pretend that we're just lovers
But I'll only ever be a middle distance runner

Well my heart is beating hard
And I'm off with a shot at the start
And my legs tremble from strain
But by the finish line I'll drain

So won't you run to me tonight?
Tonight let's not talk about next summer
Cause I'll only ever be a middle distance runner

Well I'm so proud tonight
Of the woman you've become
And I'm just too tired to fight
So my darling, I'll succumb

But you'll have to run to me tonight
Tonight I will love you forever
But I'll only ever be a middle distance runner