I really need to forget this..
Ok, I kissed thursday to hell. Cried myself to sleep. I need to forget this ordeal. If we are going to be friends. This whole situation needs to be left behind.
I am still not feeling good. I ended up telling my mom and dad. They are none to pleased. Oh well.. Know what. I threw my personal back up on AOL.. All I have to do now, is sit and wait.. If I activly look. I won't find jack! Just the way it works. :-\
Besides, I did get some news to relieve me. Being that we are redoing the house. I am getting new closet doors. Full mirrored doors. Hehehe, Mom knows I wanted that. Cause I mentioned once, "When I move out. I am having my room full of mirrors, so I can make the bitch see herself when she grits her teeth." Oh that was not towards anyone particular.. I said this 2 1/2 months ago. That was about the middle/end of the training I was giving to Peggy. (Hehehe, ya gotta love this house and the freedom of language.)
So, mom told me about the mirror doors and smiled at me. She knew I wanted something like that. Damn, I love her.
Well, I think I am gonna go to sleep. I look foward to having a peaceful sleep.
Ya know what.. This is seriously fucked up.. After all what I have dealt with today.. I still feel that I can have love for shauna. Maybe how we ended things.. It is just the friendship love!?!? And shauna... If you do read this.. I did not handle it as well as you think I did. Infact, I am upset at myself, cause I let it get to me. As for what I did, I am ashamed to admit it at this moment.
G'night.
I am still not feeling good. I ended up telling my mom and dad. They are none to pleased. Oh well.. Know what. I threw my personal back up on AOL.. All I have to do now, is sit and wait.. If I activly look. I won't find jack! Just the way it works. :-\
Besides, I did get some news to relieve me. Being that we are redoing the house. I am getting new closet doors. Full mirrored doors. Hehehe, Mom knows I wanted that. Cause I mentioned once, "When I move out. I am having my room full of mirrors, so I can make the bitch see herself when she grits her teeth." Oh that was not towards anyone particular.. I said this 2 1/2 months ago. That was about the middle/end of the training I was giving to Peggy. (Hehehe, ya gotta love this house and the freedom of language.)
So, mom told me about the mirror doors and smiled at me. She knew I wanted something like that. Damn, I love her.
Well, I think I am gonna go to sleep. I look foward to having a peaceful sleep.
Ya know what.. This is seriously fucked up.. After all what I have dealt with today.. I still feel that I can have love for shauna. Maybe how we ended things.. It is just the friendship love!?!? And shauna... If you do read this.. I did not handle it as well as you think I did. Infact, I am upset at myself, cause I let it get to me. As for what I did, I am ashamed to admit it at this moment.
G'night.