Does anybody even really give a fuck?
So it's about 5 am and i'm still up. Can't get to sleep for various reasons. The best reason being that in a little over 12 hours, the eagles will be playing in the super bowl. I've been watching ESPN for like 2 days straight, I'm so amped. Fuck the Patriots, it's our turn now.
The bad reason....enh just stupid shit. Not worth getting into. Just reaffirming alot of things really more than anything. WOO-HOO, bring on the rest of my life. Christ
Anyways...Played some poker tonight. Was fun. Drank some beers and just chilled around the apt. Having only 5 dollars in the bank sucks. Wish I could have a life.
Speaking of which. I'm sick of living my life in seperate places. It's really not worth it. I want some fucking stability. I'm sick of sacrificing. Get me down off this fucking cross please, por favor. Or atleast theres someone who needs to get off of a cross, and that person may be me.
I'm tired. My bodies tired, my mind's tired, and what little bit of spirit i have left is tired.
I wanna be a rock star. Fuck it. Just drop everything and go and do it. Shame i couldn't write a good song to save my life. It's ok though. I don't want to write. I just want to sing or play drums, or do both, phil collins style(OH YEAh! I CAN FEEL IT COMING...)
Wow...this is random huh?
I want good drugs. Lots of fun ones. Not like weed, that just makes me tired. I dunno, maybe some acid or something. Don't like pills much. Fuck Heroin.
I wish my life had some real advesary in it. That way i wouldn't feel like a dick when I complain about it. All of my problems are easily fixable. I should just fix them. Sadly, I wouldn't care much for the after effects. I like my life jumbled and disorganised...and i figured out why i think
See I'm kinda OCD
but I'm also passive-agressive most of the time
So my theory is that the passive agressive side of me creates problems, so that my OCD side has something to be compulsive about. It's great when psychological disorders work in tandem
In other news...I got a 3.5 this semester in school. Pretty Rocking. 3.3 overall. Not too shabby considering High School. A little more time hitting the books and a little less time writng bad music and poetry would have saved me a lot of aggrivation. Hind sights always 20-20 though. Damn me and my Anti-Authority disposistion.
I've been working on this story, but it's been going to shit lately cus i just can't find the words lately.
Too much other shit on my mind or something. Hopefully it will pass...I wanna get going on it.
So yea...that's all that's been going on in my life(or lack thereof). How's your's been?
The bad reason....enh just stupid shit. Not worth getting into. Just reaffirming alot of things really more than anything. WOO-HOO, bring on the rest of my life. Christ
Anyways...Played some poker tonight. Was fun. Drank some beers and just chilled around the apt. Having only 5 dollars in the bank sucks. Wish I could have a life.
Speaking of which. I'm sick of living my life in seperate places. It's really not worth it. I want some fucking stability. I'm sick of sacrificing. Get me down off this fucking cross please, por favor. Or atleast theres someone who needs to get off of a cross, and that person may be me.
I'm tired. My bodies tired, my mind's tired, and what little bit of spirit i have left is tired.
I wanna be a rock star. Fuck it. Just drop everything and go and do it. Shame i couldn't write a good song to save my life. It's ok though. I don't want to write. I just want to sing or play drums, or do both, phil collins style(OH YEAh! I CAN FEEL IT COMING...)
Wow...this is random huh?
I want good drugs. Lots of fun ones. Not like weed, that just makes me tired. I dunno, maybe some acid or something. Don't like pills much. Fuck Heroin.
I wish my life had some real advesary in it. That way i wouldn't feel like a dick when I complain about it. All of my problems are easily fixable. I should just fix them. Sadly, I wouldn't care much for the after effects. I like my life jumbled and disorganised...and i figured out why i think
See I'm kinda OCD
but I'm also passive-agressive most of the time
So my theory is that the passive agressive side of me creates problems, so that my OCD side has something to be compulsive about. It's great when psychological disorders work in tandem
In other news...I got a 3.5 this semester in school. Pretty Rocking. 3.3 overall. Not too shabby considering High School. A little more time hitting the books and a little less time writng bad music and poetry would have saved me a lot of aggrivation. Hind sights always 20-20 though. Damn me and my Anti-Authority disposistion.
I've been working on this story, but it's been going to shit lately cus i just can't find the words lately.
Too much other shit on my mind or something. Hopefully it will pass...I wanna get going on it.
So yea...that's all that's been going on in my life(or lack thereof). How's your's been?