A Return to Greatness
The night before New Year's Eve, I wrote a private entry recording my thoughts. They were that of a terrified and broken down individual. 2012 marks the 10th year since what was arguably the best year of my life.
Right now, I ponder over how I always yearned for previous happier times. In junior high, I longed to watch cartoons, play videogames, and fear of becoming a young adult. Then in highschool, I wished it was like the happiest days of my life when I was playing soccer, doing ok in school, and getting ready for the highlight of my week: Saturday TV and hanging out with my cousins. All throughout college, I marveled at how much fun I had in highschool and how 2002 was the best summer ever, and nothing could ever amount to it. Then in NYC I thought about college, and here I think about NYC.
It's not fair to myself to keep doing this. But the best thing I can do is take initiative to make 2012 the best year ever, better than the other two best years, 2002 & 2007. I found myself saying towards the end of 2011 "This was one of the worst years of my life." But in hindsight, it wasn't. Went out and had a lot of fun. NYC, baseball games, Flyers games, crashed some events, bit of travel, etc. I didn't make the special year of 27 as hard rock as I am, but I'm glad to say that 2012 is off to that start I wanted.
Much of my anxiety the night before New Year's had to do with the road trip and New Year's party I tried to pull together. Brian, if you're reading this, I gotta call you and apologize for not calling once I touched down! But the year started off with a life changing road trip, which I can detail in another post. I have been SOMEWHAT seeing someone in Ms. Kathleen, a regular customer of mine, so yeah I broke my professional codes for the new year. I've been going to Dante's regularly for laughs and good times. I went Frisbee golfing a couple times with Rob already. I just took Pat and Angela out to the REEEEEED LOSTER for laughs. And on Friday I'm going to my first Wing Bowl.
2012 is gonna rock my world. Already has been!
Right now, I ponder over how I always yearned for previous happier times. In junior high, I longed to watch cartoons, play videogames, and fear of becoming a young adult. Then in highschool, I wished it was like the happiest days of my life when I was playing soccer, doing ok in school, and getting ready for the highlight of my week: Saturday TV and hanging out with my cousins. All throughout college, I marveled at how much fun I had in highschool and how 2002 was the best summer ever, and nothing could ever amount to it. Then in NYC I thought about college, and here I think about NYC.
It's not fair to myself to keep doing this. But the best thing I can do is take initiative to make 2012 the best year ever, better than the other two best years, 2002 & 2007. I found myself saying towards the end of 2011 "This was one of the worst years of my life." But in hindsight, it wasn't. Went out and had a lot of fun. NYC, baseball games, Flyers games, crashed some events, bit of travel, etc. I didn't make the special year of 27 as hard rock as I am, but I'm glad to say that 2012 is off to that start I wanted.
Much of my anxiety the night before New Year's had to do with the road trip and New Year's party I tried to pull together. Brian, if you're reading this, I gotta call you and apologize for not calling once I touched down! But the year started off with a life changing road trip, which I can detail in another post. I have been SOMEWHAT seeing someone in Ms. Kathleen, a regular customer of mine, so yeah I broke my professional codes for the new year. I've been going to Dante's regularly for laughs and good times. I went Frisbee golfing a couple times with Rob already. I just took Pat and Angela out to the REEEEEED LOSTER for laughs. And on Friday I'm going to my first Wing Bowl.
2012 is gonna rock my world. Already has been!