Graveyard of Relationships
The cemetery bombed. Chris got freaked out by all the dead people, and Tim insisted on sticking to the new section where a)I didn't know anyone and b)there was no real cover, so Chris and I spent most of the time being worried. We spent amybe 15 minutes there. It was disappointing. Tim and I got into another of our arguements. I really can't blame them on Tim since I keep telling myself I'm not going to say anything to him, and then I slip up. Tim and I are doomed to have communication errors, mostly because his tone of voice offends me. I am not 12 years old, nor am I a hysteric. Stop trying to comfort me like some damned child. I know what I need to do you moron. That doesn't stop me from being depressed. Honestly, I wonder how much of my depression stems from that relationship. He talks about trust, but I can't even trust him to remember a date, let alone keep it. And if I can't trust him with something that simple, why should I trust him with any of my personal affairs? He just doesn't get it. He's not a very trust-inspiring person, not really, though he might seem that way to the casual observer.
Our relationship really is failing, if it's not dead entirely. Between all the communication errors, the completely incompatible personalities, our different goals in the relationship, family problems, and the fact that we really have nothing in common, there's nothing to base a relationship on. Dan and I have more in common, and if he and I were the last two on Earth, the human species would die off from mutual apathy. He thinks I am too serious and need to lighten up, and his looniness grates on my nerves. We don't have any interesting conversations, because they're all about either gaming (and we have different gaming styles too) or something asnine like the Nature of God, which I have no interest in, being lapsed Satanist/Luciferianist myself. We don't like the same music; we don't like the same movies. He seems perfectly happy with the way the relationship is currently, but I've been feeling frustrated with it for over a year now. We're really not fond of each other's family, and I have a feeling the families feel the same way.
So why continue...? I'm not happy at all with it, and I would be surprised if he was. I've been passing hints this direction for at least a year now, if not longer, and it's starting to grate on me. Even recent events have not clued people in. Why should I stay with something I cannot stand?
I don't know.
L.A.
Our relationship really is failing, if it's not dead entirely. Between all the communication errors, the completely incompatible personalities, our different goals in the relationship, family problems, and the fact that we really have nothing in common, there's nothing to base a relationship on. Dan and I have more in common, and if he and I were the last two on Earth, the human species would die off from mutual apathy. He thinks I am too serious and need to lighten up, and his looniness grates on my nerves. We don't have any interesting conversations, because they're all about either gaming (and we have different gaming styles too) or something asnine like the Nature of God, which I have no interest in, being lapsed Satanist/Luciferianist myself. We don't like the same music; we don't like the same movies. He seems perfectly happy with the way the relationship is currently, but I've been feeling frustrated with it for over a year now. We're really not fond of each other's family, and I have a feeling the families feel the same way.
So why continue...? I'm not happy at all with it, and I would be surprised if he was. I've been passing hints this direction for at least a year now, if not longer, and it's starting to grate on me. Even recent events have not clued people in. Why should I stay with something I cannot stand?
I don't know.
L.A.