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life is too random to be real.
today didnt actually make too much sense.
all i know is that i should be content, and i pretty much am, but empathy and overanalyzing always gets the best of me.
i guess that's why i always keep my entries so short. id freaking kill myself internally. by accident.
yeah so pretty much im extremely thrilled, but not really at the same time. i mean im SO EFFING GRATEFUL and i cant stop smiling, so theres that. it's a weight lifted but then again not because everything else isnt final. its just one part of it, which is nice but then not as fufulling as i had hoped?
sorry for being so vague. im writing in a livejournal, what do you expect.
[hahahah i sound like a completely different, biatchy, cynical, weird, sad, matter-of-fact person on the internet. i swear im not any of those things. except weird.]
today didnt actually make too much sense.
all i know is that i should be content, and i pretty much am, but empathy and overanalyzing always gets the best of me.
i guess that's why i always keep my entries so short. id freaking kill myself internally. by accident.
yeah so pretty much im extremely thrilled, but not really at the same time. i mean im SO EFFING GRATEFUL and i cant stop smiling, so theres that. it's a weight lifted but then again not because everything else isnt final. its just one part of it, which is nice but then not as fufulling as i had hoped?
sorry for being so vague. im writing in a livejournal, what do you expect.
[hahahah i sound like a completely different, biatchy, cynical, weird, sad, matter-of-fact person on the internet. i swear im not any of those things. except weird.]