pissed
I hate making plans when I'm so fucked up that I can't even talk because then I deffinitly do not remember that I have to do things with people at certain times because then I wind up hurting people and fucking up more. Mind rendering materials fucking suck, but they're fun at the time that they're being abused but the consquences suck so hard. I want to apologize to everyone who I've screwed over when I was supposed to hang out with them but forgot because I was unable to think clearly. *unfortunately I still believe saying sorry wont do anything and the only time that you are truely connected with someone is when you don't have to say sorry* but whatever. It's so not worth it.