An Epiphany...
The last couple of days I've been doing a lot of thinking and analyzing, and every time I had those thoughts I had every intention of writing them in a journal entry. However, my lazy ass didn't have the energy to put those thoughts in a concise entry.
So.. today's epiphany is about love. I have come to realize, now that my heart has been broken, what it was to love someone and have them love you back. You can never rationalize love but you can always sorta describe/feel it.
I remember it being able to look into someones eyes and feel at home, and when you are apart you yearn for them to be by your side. You never have to worry explaining yourself because they know exactly what you mean or what you are thinking. They know you inside out...no hiding feelings or aspects of your personality you usually don't show in public.
I understand now what it is to love someone unconditionally, where you don't care about anything else but making them happy. You do everything in your power to make them a better person, because you want nothing but the best for them. You sacrifice your time, your plans, your life only because you want to make this one person happy. You want to grow old with them, you want the same eyes you looked into at 22, to be the same eyes you look into at 70, but with more wrinkles and grey hair.
Not until now.. that I no longer have that love, do I realize what love really is. When I was in love I didn't know it. I think this is a good lesson for me though, because now I know what it is to love and be in love and have that reciprocated back.
It is true what they say.. you haven't really loved until you have lost it. I have come to terms with what I card have been dealt by life, and how hard this lesson is. Every time you think about this person, who you gave your whole heart to isn't there anymore you feel like a little part of you is gone and all you want to do is throw up.
I'm not sure if it will always be this way, or maybe it just something temporarily. But I do know... that the next time I fall in love I won't take it for granted, because I know how wonderful and painful it can be.
As I close this revealing entry....I conclude that I am glad that I finally know what love is, because I don't think I can continue growing old without ever knowing what it is like.
So.. today's epiphany is about love. I have come to realize, now that my heart has been broken, what it was to love someone and have them love you back. You can never rationalize love but you can always sorta describe/feel it.
I remember it being able to look into someones eyes and feel at home, and when you are apart you yearn for them to be by your side. You never have to worry explaining yourself because they know exactly what you mean or what you are thinking. They know you inside out...no hiding feelings or aspects of your personality you usually don't show in public.
I understand now what it is to love someone unconditionally, where you don't care about anything else but making them happy. You do everything in your power to make them a better person, because you want nothing but the best for them. You sacrifice your time, your plans, your life only because you want to make this one person happy. You want to grow old with them, you want the same eyes you looked into at 22, to be the same eyes you look into at 70, but with more wrinkles and grey hair.
Not until now.. that I no longer have that love, do I realize what love really is. When I was in love I didn't know it. I think this is a good lesson for me though, because now I know what it is to love and be in love and have that reciprocated back.
It is true what they say.. you haven't really loved until you have lost it. I have come to terms with what I card have been dealt by life, and how hard this lesson is. Every time you think about this person, who you gave your whole heart to isn't there anymore you feel like a little part of you is gone and all you want to do is throw up.
I'm not sure if it will always be this way, or maybe it just something temporarily. But I do know... that the next time I fall in love I won't take it for granted, because I know how wonderful and painful it can be.
As I close this revealing entry....I conclude that I am glad that I finally know what love is, because I don't think I can continue growing old without ever knowing what it is like.